Feel the heat/ Tuesday, July 18, 2006

weekdays are becoming so packed and breathless for me. i suddenly start to realised tt there are quite a number of commitments in my life now, which are making me breathless and kinda overwhelmed. let's see...1. of course, to do daily QT and spend Quality time with God.2. taking care of mummy and making sure i have been a good girl. and in this aspect there are much to be elaborate. -big responsibility, esp now tt both brothers arent around at home.3. studies. besides just dragging myself to school every morning, i need to have tt discipline to study when i get home everyday at 5-6plus. =( this point 3 is such a killer for me lah.4. sundays- helping out with CG stuff- this part is what i called joy sometimes. 5. sundays- being there for pple who need to talk to me=)6. attending LTP201 on fridays.- to have better understanding of the session before sunday to help get the ball rolling in CG.7. follow up with my dearest girls- something tt i really enjoy also. but its hard for us to come up with a date to meet up sometimes, cos we all have national exams. but im glad we still do.8. SFC- Shining For Christ. my dearest captain's ball commitment. 2nd and 4th saturadays of the month. -constantly keeping the joy and reaching out to newcomers. 9. meeting up with lucille and sarah- prayer partners. we meet together almost every week to pray for anything, everything- missions, youth ministry, ourselves, pple, Cg..etc.10. EE- i need to go and memorise everything and test myself again and again. must put in more effort to make things right! -as i think about the many things which i need to do, i realised how my focus shift , from the cross to all these earthly issues. and again, putting Christ back into tt throne in my life is another big challenge. but well, everything will be well when Christ is back on the throne and when we place our worries and burdens on Him =) -through these months, i also realised how much i have changed. in attiude, character and the way i relate to ppl. i became more self-centered, more hack-care about about of things. and definately i became more and even lazier than last time. im quite a slacker now but the other part of me is panic-ing about Olevels. and yes, i think i became really "whatever lah, kinda of person." and i guess when i say whatever, most of the times i really mean it, and i dont care. which is like so bad can?! arghh, i think im alittle better last time. but well, it all boils down to the fact tt im nt really in the right track with God and ya. keep going keep going...-okays, need to go work on my undone tons of work. hear that? they are calling me! =( JESUS SHALL BE THE FOCUS AGAIN. *You hold my world in the palm of Your hands.yongling-g
you completed my life..
3:52 AM <3
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