Feel the heat/ Wednesday, August 31, 2005
find JOY in all situations.
esp for lucille; (: thankew for spending time together on tues! i really love ur smile. ha! and i admire how u desire to worship Him and your passion for the lost. i see how u really want to serve, to reach out to new comers to make them feel welcome. thankew for being such a shining star for Jesus. :D and ya, just want to affirm u tt, i love u as much as u love me! remb our princess treaty kaes? *HUGS* rejoice always.
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY! :D to all teachers.
*cant wait for prom night;*
..yongling;
you completed my life..
6:04 PM <3
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new skin. (:
chocolates ROCKS;
BLACK rules;
SIMPLICATIONS.
yongling.
you completed my life..
5:37 AM <3
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Feel the heat/ Saturday, August 27, 2005
finally its done. new layout(:
was on the bus home yesterday when i saw a really cute little girl.
so adorable lah. (: i wonder what will she become when she grows up in this world.
i m thinking about how her life can impact others.thinking of whether she is eager to be a grown up/ teenager. wondering how she will deal with her struggles in life when she is growing up. will she ever know Christ?
looking back at myself, i wondered too whether i was eager to grow up at tt time in my life.
i think i did. i was so eager to go school when both my brothers started their education. i wanted to have my own homework, textbooks, pencil case and school bags. i taught life will be so fun and exciting. (not saying it isnt, well abit.)
i was eager to grow up and be on my own.
now tt i m sixteen, big enough to be called a teen, i miss my childhood.
i cant even remb anything abt my childhood. time passes really fast. its all seems like yesterday.
(though i cant remb) its so good to be a kid. surrounded by innocence stuffs.
the older i get, the more things. (of course,heh) i see more stuffs.
esp when i enter my sec 1 life. everything changes. i tried so hard to find tt kind of pure joy, innocence friends but nope i never did find one. everything around me forces me to blend in together with the surroundings. its hard not to get in ya? there will be cunning and scheming ppl ard. i must always be on guard. (which i dont) i see friends of mine whom changed to someone they are not used to be. it hurts so badly to see them turned to astray. its all about life changes. rather, its about growing up.
facing struggles and problems in life is also part of growing up isnt it? to learn to be strong and independent. be optimistic and positive. to learn to takecare of yourselves and family and friends. to work hard for ur cert too.
growing up hurts ya? but its a journey worth to walk on. treasure everyday of ur life now. dont ever look back and regret. leave footprints in your life. so tt when u look back, u'll smiled.
thankew Jesus for this precious life of mine. help mi to live it to the fullest evey single day to glorify you.
back to the ever-adorable girl, i prayed tt she will find Jesus. and tt she will walk this journey of hers with courage and strength and to live her life so greatly tt it will impact others' lives.
*my life belongs to JEsus, yours?*
yyonglingg;
you completed my life..
12:46 AM <3
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Feel the heat/ Thursday, August 25, 2005
blogging begins.
my prelims results are really bad. i mean really BAD.
and i mean it. i mean really really bad. its not up to my expectations though.
but its over means its over. no more try. the final and actual one is here.
downcount? -11 more days. *SCREAMS*
my life? revision everyday. rushing work in school everyday.
and seriously, although i feel the urge to study hard and tt N levels are really near, i m still not really doing anything. i m not even studying as hard as i should. i m slacking. SLACKING!
and for goodness sake, i m still blogging. and being online. gosh. *faints*
and ya. i felt really terrible when i take back my prelims papers. i almost died of shock. i din expect to do so badly. but really thanks God tt i got A2 for POA. ((:
so for those taking major exams, note tt, really do YOUR best, then God will do thte rest.
as for me, i know and you know, i din put in my best. i just bluff my way through.
starting to plan my revision timetable. and i realised i have thousands of topics to complete in 2 weeks. crap. hey peeps, pray for discipline for me ya? and patience of course.((:
blogging ends.
*if you want to walk on water, you must first get out of your boat.*
yyyonglingggg;
you completed my life..
3:42 AM <3
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Feel the heat/ Thursday, August 18, 2005
you completed my life..
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Feel the heat/ Tuesday, August 16, 2005
when times are tough and you feel lousy in sea of sadness, when you feel confused and uncertain of your future, what is the one thing you can absolutely, unquestionably, secretly trust?
______(fill-in-the-blank)
it's strong enough to move mountains; it's gentle enough to wipe the tear from a child's cheek; it's enduring enough to withstand any crisis; it's healing enough to mend the most broken heart; it's faithful enough to stay when everything has left or been lost.
it is love-authentic, anchored, life-altering love. it is God's love. don't waste your time pursing anything else. everything else will fail you. nothing else satisfies, heals, protects, or provides like God's love.
when you call, He comes- He promised He would. when you cry, He tastes salt-He knows your pain. when you cant get up, He lifts you-you are His passion. when you pray for His presence, dont be surpised if you hear a comforting voice in your spirit saying, "i'm already here."
then, as you lay in the lap of His love, you can look into His eyes and say, "i knew you'd come."
*the lengths to which this God will go to express His love for us are almost beyond belief-almost, but not quite.* -Jim Mc Guiggan.
the gift of significance.
your life is precious. your life touches the lives of others in a unique, meaningful way- in a way that no other life can. other people in thi world lean on you when they're hurting, want you by their sides when they're struggling, A pretty sizable hole would be left if you weren't around.
in the same light, there are people in this world that you depend on. How about the friend who wept with you when you faced your greatest loss? or your mum or dad who showed you that failure is not final and that true love is unconditional. or how about the brother/sister with whom you've shared some of your deepest secrets-and they're still secrets.
sometimes you might allow insecurities and other influences to convince you that your life doesn't matter- that you hold no special significance.
but there are nail-scarred hands and an empty grave that proclaim your significance!
if you were the only person in the world, Jesus would have walked the same path, shed the same tears, and faced the same brutal death. why? because you're you! that's enough for Him.
*no one is useless to GOD. NO ONE. *
yongling; His. saved.
you completed my life..
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Feel the heat/ Monday, August 15, 2005
be strong
and
very courageous.
"I can't believe the way
Your love has got a hold on me
Each morning I wake to find You near
You lift me above my fears
And set my feet on solid ground
All of my days belong to You
And I breathe in Your breath of life that fills my heart
You are my all consuming fire
I stand here before You
In wide opened wonder
Amazed at the glory of You
The power of heaven
Revealing Your purpose in me
As I'm reaching for You"
yonglingg..
you completed my life..
12:39 AM <3
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Feel the heat/ Sunday, August 14, 2005
"wad u really wants in life?" , " u dun believe in God!"
this two sentence hit right into my face today.
i always tell myself i m not stress and i will be strong for God.
but i come to realise i m not. i dun even believe in God to bring mi thru my exams period.
was talking to john abt how i feel and how everything so difficult.
and i realised myself tt i m really prideful and i cant accept the things God wants for me.
i cannot accept facts and reality. i cant face it.
john said, " u know wad? u dun even believe in God, u dun trust Him enough.!" it smacks right in my face. it really does. i been praying and asking God to grant me favour. but true, i dun even trust Him to do it. i pray but i dun even claim the promises.
i guess i dun love God enough to give up my tv, com time for Him. for studies, for family.
i dun love Him enough to glorify Him with my life.
and i dunno wad i want for my life. and i dunno wad God wants.
today sermon speaks to mi too. i know God was calling me to be risk-takers for Him in sch and at home. i find it hard to step out to the front during the 1st time the song was sung.
i struggled to walk out. i was wondering and i was... lack of courage. so when the song was abt to end, i thought oh no, i cant, there is no more time le. and i feel bad not stepping out. God was calling me to go. He really is. surpisingly, pastor kenny asked for another altarcall and a 2nd song played. and he was looking at my direction when he said," ans God's call. make tt decision to be risk-takers for God. whatever strong holds you have in ur life, Jesus have set them free." the next moment, i was out in front. when pastor shern is praying for me, i can really sense tt God is so near. and so glad tt i m out in front. and His will for me to step out in faith in sch once again. and prelims and exams is nothing compared to Him. stress? Jesus have set me free from stress. and i know i havent been doing my best in studies. and the thing tt really struck me was when pastor kenny said," do whatever it is that you are able to do in your abilities and leave the rest to God."
*why didnt i trust God enough for my future? yongling, you dont love God enough*
God doesnt want me to have a half-divided heart.
yongling;
you completed my life..
8:32 AM <3
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Feel the heat/ Friday, August 12, 2005
oh derrick is out of superstar le lah! :( tooo bad. wah he really got alot of fans lah.
so many ppl crying for him. i find it funny. why cry for someone who doesnt even know you?
i just felt quite sad cause he os quite a good singer man. hahaa but oh its not my problem too. and its not for us to judge.
finally! social studies paper is over! ((: another paper down. dun need to stress abt SS le.
and art is done too. ((: eng and chinese down too. the rest gonna be really fine man.(:
went home after my art's done today. slept thru the afternoon man.haa. i woke up blur and crazy. i thought i was late for sch.but the time is 5:30pm. i was thinking. a y still so bright? 5:30 ler. shouldnt it be dark? and for a moment i thought i was dreaming. hahaa. i stared at the clock for a few mins before i realised its the evening. (: *BLUR MI* super refreshing. haven sleep for so long and so peaceful for so so long. praise GOD.
i miss worshipping GOD. sunday seems so far away. haa. i think its because its my prelims week and therefore time seems to be passing really slowly. heee. i miss sundays. i miss CG! i miss stayovers. opps. i m starting to miss things again. heee. (okie yongling stop it)<--joanne likes this lah. cause she always says(okie joanne stop it) :b
reaching out to someone really needs alot of effort timr and patience+ love.
you just have to make it so intentionally to reach out. (:
it not gonna be easy. but just think of it, u miss the chances of sharing Jesus w ur frens, u wont see them in heaven. i been struggling hard to keep my life pleasing to God, and living my life as a worship for Him. struggling to share with others. talk to others abt Jesus. but God is always faithful, i know He been sending ppl into my life for mi to reach out. and i know He will grant me courage and take away my fear and discouragement. i know this year gonna be tough for me. cause before this year begins, my Lord remind mi to be strong and courageous for Him thru smses from so many ppl! even the sermons series now is on Joshua. (the Lord commanded Joshua to be stong and courageous alot of times)
coool. an exciting year for me. running on! nothing gonna break me down cos i m Jesus's. (:
*i miss 1N1, 2N1, 3N1 and i will miss 4n1 too. the place of tears and laughter.*
yyongling;
you completed my life..
4:06 AM <3
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Feel the heat/ Thursday, August 11, 2005
been studying in churchh w my partner-in-studies: MP3 player. (:
chinese paper was was okie today. but was super tired while doing the chinese papaer. nearly fall asleep. :/
thanks God another paper gone. (okay i know its only prelims, still have n levels to go.)
having the most horrible paper tmr. social studies. i think i should be able to make it bah. been tryiing to memorise and understand the chapters. (: God will work in my life. as He always does.
as i was super stressed up and trying really hard to get my mind to memories and understand the chapters, the song " your beloved" played. its really nice and assuring(: it really encourages me and keep reminding me tt i m not alone. and i'm His beloved.
I'm Your beloved.
Lord, it was you, who created the heavens.
Lord it was Your hands, tt put the stars in their place.
Lord it was Your voice, tt
Even oceans and their waves, bow at Your feet.
Lord, who am i compare to Your glory?
O Lord~
Lord, who am i compare to Your majesty?
*I'm your beloved; Your creation.
and You love mw as I m
You called mi chosen for Your kingdom.
unashamed to call me Your own.
i'm Your beloved.* -repeat.
another encouragement from God. the song: FREE.
reminding i m free from anything because of Jesus. i m free from stress.(: accepted by Jesus always.
free.
Would you believe me if i said we are the ones who can make the changes in the world today?
would you believe me if i said all the dreams in your hearts can come true today? yeah~
Would you believe me if i said life could be all tt u want it to be today? yeah~
*if i had wings, i would fly. all that i need, you are.
and if the world caved in ard me, to you i still hold on.
cause u are the one i ever and the one who created me.
Jesus because of you i free.*-reapeat
Would you believe me if i said God can make miralces happen today? yeah yeah~
Would you believe me if i said you don't need to wait for the answers before you step out in faith.
Would you believe me if i said nothing is ever impossible for God. yeah~
just live your life with God inside.
You won't regret one moment of it.
Live all that.
Live for GOD.
for GODDD.
Jesus, beacause of you i'm FREE.
im free. im freee.
nice eh? (: IM FREE! (: so are you! (:
You are His beloved. stay in His embrace and nv leave Him outta of your life.
Father, i pray for a change of heart. a heart tt seeks You.
*You lived, You died. you rose again on high.You opened the way for the world to live again. hallelujah for all You've done*
yyongling;
you completed my life..
2:26 AM <3
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Feel the heat/ Wednesday, August 10, 2005
its wed. im at EYC! trying to study. haa.
so glad tt i met bethia and andrew here.(: study tog! coool.
i m not alone lah. but prelims continue tmr:/
dunno y i jus feel tt i cant make it. there is still so much stuffs to study lah. crap.
really scare lah. so tough.
i m really overwhelmed. really. *tired and sick lah.
*JEsus; because of u i'm FREE!*
yongling;
you completed my life..
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Feel the heat/ Monday, August 08, 2005
its national day! (: happy birthday singapore!
so cool. 40 years of independent.
i feel so proud to be a singaporean. (:
my art coursework are due this thurs. this thurs! and i m like onli 3/4 done. crap.
and i m still thinking whether i should drop art for O levels.(next year)
art took up most of my time. but art to mi can be really fun. and to think of it, i m really proud to be called a art student. though art can also brings lots of frustration and all, i love it. which subject dont? should i drop art next year? next year is an other important year. i dun want my art take up so much of my study and revision time again. but after all its time management lah. but.. aiyo. :/ anyway, i m really really proud to be called a art student. drawing and painting is so so fun. and i love toning! so coool. hahaa. from dark to light or light to dark. drawing and shading is always beyond my control! (:
okie now. part of my Cg is gonna be at my place today! (: we are going to watch NDP parade together. and dinner i think.yepp. really cool. its been so long since we had cg outing man. cant wait for later! but sarah's coming earlier. we gonna study together. study! i started to love studying too. (: thankew fellow cg members, for making studying so fun and interesting.
we gonna have lots of fun later! (:
okie sarah come le.(: bye.
*in His time, everything will be so perfect.*
yongling;
you completed my life..
9:07 PM <3
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Feel the heat/ Sunday, August 07, 2005
yesterday was a really fun day! w all the unexpected events.(:
morning : had breakfast w sam
: got to know wang wang(if i m not wrong), talk to cindy and wang wang.
:vincent came to church again.
afternoon : lunch w lucille and vera !(:
: open sunday; games!
: we got the championship! :D *group 2 yeah!*
: shern's special made apple crumble for our CG! *thanks*
: we were at basketball court.
evening : went causeway w vera and cindy.
: suppose to meet jules, john, jiehuai ans swee boon for dinner.
: went to take neo printS w vera. (had whole lots of fun lah)
: went for a drink at mos. and met vera's family(:
coool. so fun! vera, its been rreally fun lah. hahaa. all the "one more time try." haha. i think the 1st is really sucessful. haha. oh its all gonna be in great memories. (: thankew so much.
*be seekers of His heart;*
yongling;
you completed my life..
5:48 PM <3
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Feel the heat/ Friday, August 05, 2005
new layout(:
thankew for tagging!
went FOP yesterday. wasnt wad i expected but great job by the bands.!
and its really coool to see ppl smuggling food in and trying to run away from the guard attention!
anyway reach home at 1am yesterday!(:
its saturday again. gonna stay at home.
i dun find doing housework tough and irritating anymore.
yes, like wad sam said, when u obey God, you will find Joy in wadever u are doing.(for HIM)
rather, i kinda like it now.
i love listening to mummy at the middle of night while i m studying.
listening to how stress and tired she was.
i love to talk to her. i love to pray for her.
i enjoy helping daddy too. even small things like cutting apples for him, it makes him happy and encouraged.
thanks God for putting tt desire in my heart to keep loving them more each day. (:
my brothers rocks too. ever-caring! (:
praise God for my family.
i see the change in myself now. how i hate nagging from mum. how i hate doing housework. how i really dread cutting apples and all. i like it all now. i really do. i love to see mum and dad smile.! (:
its all Him not me.
*with God, i will never be the same again*
yongling;
*p/s: prelims start le. pray for mi ya? *
you completed my life..
9:43 PM <3
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Feel the heat/ Thursday, August 04, 2005
new URL! (:
yup. the existing blog is not offically deleted yet. http://promiseholdingon.blogspot.com
so tt previous entries still can be read. (lazy to copy paste.)
yep. (:
you completed my life..
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