In the heat of SUMMER BLISS /

Feel the heat/ Sunday, April 30, 2006

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and with my brother friends sleeping in my living room, you guessed it, i din have a good night sleep. they were so noisy lah.*arghh* now they are sleeping so soundly and i cant sleep! they are like living in America lah, our morning is their night, and our night, their morning, so nonsense. okays nvm..

hmmm its quite weird waking up early in the morning thinking of how to write my testimony. =)

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i wrote a whole lot of words. but then, i decided not to post. my testimony are too long i guess, and my command of english is not very good.
and i thought it will be quite boring for readers=) and maybe, it shall be a surprise on my baptism day.=)

now that you're near.

I stand before You, Lord
And give You all my praise
Your love is all I need
Jesus, You're all I need
My life belongs to You
You gave Your life for me
Your grace is all I need
Jesus, You're all I need
Hold me in Your arms
Never let me go
I wanna spend eternity with You
And now that You're near
Everything is different
Everything's so different, Lord
And I know I'm not the same
My life You've changed
And I wanna be with You
I wanna be with You

And I will sing for You always
'Cause in Your presence God is where I wanna stay

-yongling.

you completed my life..
5:18 PM <3
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Feel the heat/ Saturday, April 29, 2006

sometimes in life, this is what we face.

struggling with our decisions, directions and plans. we got nothing, not a sign, God seems silence, the road seems aimless, you start to wonder is God there, do He really understands?

we find our own directions, we seek and seek, we continue with our own little decisions and live our own ways..but all we found is nothing.

but a closed-road, tt leads us to no where. in the end, we still have make a U-turn to where we started, tt road with no sign.

one-way, everyone says tt Jesus is the only way. and His ways are higher, so many just continue to have tt head-knowledge and went seeking for tt one way, without believing and letting God work.

and there you look ard, you saw "one way"s but which is the correct one? have u ever come across something like tt? seeking for tt one way in your life, but found so many of them. which is the correct one? what is God doing, you asked.

is it the left way? right way? ahead or behind, or God,is it just wait? or stop? or walk? run? dash? breathe? up? or down? "one way?" which way?

and there in my struggles, somehow, i saw this sign, God's way. the hardest way for me i guess. all the struggles and trials never stop coming my way, bu thru all these, somehow, i still saw this sign, this God's way, nt the confusing wayS anymore.

i admit, i struggled with God sometimes to walk thru His way, i got off track sometimes too. i tried to make some U-turns sometimes, but i realised, once i start this journey, i'll never wanna stop. never.

i'll follow all of ur ways.
-yonglingg

you completed my life..
6:45 AM <3
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Feel the heat/ Thursday, April 27, 2006

its been a long journey.

until the stars fall.
Well, I know we see
The same blue sky
But there¹s a different shade of blue
Between you and I
And I want to say
What¹s on my heart
But you might not see the light
Until you know the dark (Til you go thru the dark)
It may be miles away
It could break thru today
Are you gonna wait till the stars fall
from the sky?
To call on heaven
What¹s it gonna take to make you realize?
The life we¹re given here is not the end
Believe and it begins
Are you gonna wait til the stars fall
from the sky?
I pray somewhere
There will come a time
Hope and doubt will crowd you
Closer to the line
And the truth will dawn
Like the light of day
And in that moment you will
Take a leap of faith
It may be miles away
Or today could be the day
Everything we see reveals
The one who made it so (Look around you)
And even God himself came down to show
The lengths that love will go...Chorus
Are you gonna wait til the stars fall from the sky?
Will it take the dark to make you see the light?
Are you gonna wait til the stars fall from the sky?

you completed my life..
10:44 PM <3
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Feel the heat/ Wednesday, April 26, 2006

there is no school tmr for ADSSians=)

was studying at woodlands library ytd. sitting at the cafe there, i realised how much i miss studying there. remb last year, me and gary& some others used to study there. nice environment. and i really love the cookies&cream milkshake there!<33> soon. next week, mid year exams2006.one of the exams thru my sec life tt im really stress about. after mid year exams, prelims and oral will come one after another. can i make it? dumbo*
this sunday is daddy's birthday. what can i do? anyway, i wont be in church. guess i din plan to go anyway. cant imagine what i can do when i see mummy crying.
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i dont wanna say anything, dumbo*
memories so deep, so fresh in the mind
undeserving, -your.precious

you completed my life..
2:55 AM <3
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Feel the heat/ Monday, April 24, 2006

=) hows your day?

had a long day today. had chem prac. and as usual, i alwyas screwed things up. its so crap lah, i really dont know how to do. okays, whatever, tt's nt the point.

encouragements! =) i got a big pack of marshmallows from baoling today! something small like this really brighten my day=) *munch*

went to eat with raymund at the coffeeshop near our blocks, started eating at abt 5plus, wanted to go home in time for my 5.30pm show, but yes, it started raining heaVILY!and yah, thank God there's a tv set there. so we stayed there to finish the one hour show. and yah, after one hour, the rain kinda stopped so we went home. it was damm cold at the coffeshop lah, the wind is blowing so strongly plus all the high speed fans. wohoo.~ greezing lah. [okays at least for me.]

crap lah, something's weird. its the feeling of having a bug ard you. *stop bugging* what's tt something? hmfpt.

bummer.

bugging, bugging, bugging, oh bugger.
-yongling;

you completed my life..
4:41 AM <3
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Feel the heat/ Friday, April 21, 2006

when clouds of darkness overwhips my soul
when the strength of my heart fades away
when my friends have left me
all the hopes seem far away
when the word of comfort refuse to stay

there's is a song in the night
there's a light in the dark
there's a gentle voice tt smoothes my heart.

for i know tt my redeemer lives
and His love for me will never end
my heart, my flesh may fade away
yet with my eyes will see my God.

in the quiet corner
in the still of night
your tender presence lifts me high
my sweet companion
my strength and guide
my soul deep anchor in you
i abide

i live my life to give you praise
everyday every breathe every beat of my heart
this life is captured by your grace to worship who you are
who you are

song of job.
its a really nice song. it reminds me about His unfailing love. despite all tt the author went through, he still proclaims His goodness.How amazing, how wonderful is His love.

How wide is your great love
tt You would come and die for me
the Lamb that's been given
So i may come received

Your grace it overflows
Your mercy fills me in my soul
Such a wonderful saviour
who knows me like my own

what a privilege for me to come depend
On a God who calls me by my name, my friend

Above all else
i want to live you like You do
Lord i will worship like i should
i will give my all to You
Above all else
i want to live my life each day
pleasing in every single way
Jesus I will offer up my all to You. ,

above all else.
there's times when i would fall
when i cant seem to hear you call
but i know that You're there Lord
You'll never let me go

You'll always stand by me
For who i am and used to be
Don't deserve any of this
the things you freely give.

=) these two songs, such an encouragement to me. And the grave became a place of hope, for the heart that sin and sorrow broke is beating once again.
these few weeks have been a busy and tiring weeks for me.to once again rely on His strength, not mine. tests after tests, exams after exams. i'm simply amazes by His grace.
the love tt never end.

nothing compares;
yongling*

you completed my life..
3:55 AM <3
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Feel the heat/ Wednesday, April 19, 2006

have a break, have a kit-kat;

i want a big easter choc egg!!

jellybeans&marshmallows rocks!

you completed my life..
6:09 AM <3
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Feel the heat/ Thursday, April 13, 2006

Jesus is the reason.

busy, is the word. sec5 is just so different! there's tons of homework to be done! really WOW. [okays, u can argue tt JC is worse.] since my secondary life, i never had so much work before! hahahaa. its wow. =) getting stressed? hmmm not really, but not really not too. mid year like's 2weeks later and i still got like alot more chapters[each sub] to go. 0.o

today in class, we were in our EL groups discussing abt our compre. suddenly, someone talked abt the gospel of Judas, the show screened ytd at national geog channel. they were finding prove to say tt Jesus asked Judas to betray him, ya something along tt line. and ah ha! , a chance to talk abt christianity=) being a blur and "what to say Lord" kinda girl, i tried to explain abit here and there. and awhile later, someone brought up the issue abt the Lord's supper, and guess it, the issue of DAvinci code came up. so i decided to collect the little magazine abt the bible and Davinci code for them. =) thank God for such a chance to serve Him. and the day b4, i was reading my bible and there was tt passage, abt Judas bringing the soldiers up to the hill to arrest Jesus. and thank God tt i can explain abit thru the passage to them as to why Judas kissed Jesus. =) my God's incredulous.

tmr good's friday. lets us continue to look towards the cross and continue to run this race with the CROSS. =)

*thankYOU for all that you have done
yongling;

you completed my life..
2:16 AM <3
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Feel the heat/ Monday, April 10, 2006

im so so blessed beyond measure.

the Lord gives and he takes away.
through these 7mths, i learned alot. =) no doubt i still miss my dad very badly, but im still so loved. i see the ppl around me, i see how God works. and i see how im not alone at all. others have situations worse than me. looking back at myself, i thanked God tt i still have each and everyone of you here, reading my entries and tagging. im never lack of love at all. never. at times, there is just so many questions tt i need Him to ans immediately, i just need tt reply. but i was reminded by the sermon, His ways are not mine, and my thoughts are nt HIs thoughts. im still human, i have feelings, i still cry. but through it all, the question is "are u willing to let God work thru you?" im grateful tt He holds me and He never let me go. this journey here have not been smooth sailing, ups and downs, tears&joy, hurts&pain, but i have walked this far, with God walking alongside me. =)

never wanna know how its like living life without Jesus.
yongling.;

you completed my life..
5:01 AM <3
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Feel the heat/ Sunday, April 09, 2006

today captain's ball was good. out of nowhere, we got the team name, last dash. we got third in place after a really good "fight" thanks to LAST DASH.

eric- thanks for always encouraging the team and being such a fanstatic blocker=)
gary- who says you cant run! u was super good at catching&passing lah.
baoling- u really amazes me. =) so enthu despite sport shoes-less. LOVES<3
pris- and yes, without you, there will be no LAST DASH.
raymund- thankyou for being such a WOW catcher=)

went for dinner after everything with a few of them. shal lnot go into details how dinner and everything goes. anyway yepp, thanks God for today and everything tt He has been to me.

learning to keep waiting and trusting for the many questions to be answered.
* im still loved, right?*
yonglingg;

you completed my life..
6:49 AM <3
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Feel the heat/ Thursday, April 06, 2006

so nice right?! =DD <3

been quite long since i blog. so yah, here it is =)
this week been quite long for me & sick too. i felt sick, so went to see doc on wed. the doc said i dont have enough rest. hahaha and need to drink plenty of water. plenty of water, sounds familiar ahs? i know, cos the whole world been telling me, so it proves tt i should start putting it into action =) so yah here im resting and trying to think of what to blog. i watched 2 movies this week! ice age2 on monday and ultraviolet today! both shows are very good!=D
had follow up with amanda&caryn today! it reminds me once again to put God first and everything will be right. =) and coool, mum asked me to go out today! and so i met mummy for dinner at causeway. she forced me to drink tonic soup lah! hahaha. but well, she has my interests at heart. <3>

=D rejoice in the Lord always. dearest warriors, cont to shine for Christ wherever you are. God knows and He sees your hearts&needs. JPM tmr. 8pm, see you there~!

you need to let of the past to have a future*

You still deserve all of me-;
yongling;

you completed my life..
6:58 AM <3
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