In the heat of SUMMER BLISS /

Feel the heat/ Friday, September 30, 2005

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guess alot of people didnt know abt this blog.ha~
A blog set up by us to keep each other accountable and to spur each other.
hope it can encourages you too(:

hey IDENTIFIED-ones, know tt exams are all ard the corner and the blog is kinda abandoned for now. but get it alive and going after exams kaes? let God use lives to glorify HImself.
jia you jia you! running together w u all! each of you is just so special.(:

giving thanks to GOD for:

`IDENTIFIED.- beryl;for always being so cheerful.
joanne;for always being so sweet and caring,
lucille;for always helping me with my ENGLISH!.
sarah;for being SO encouraging.
vera;for being there everytime i need a HUG.
*HUGStoIDENTIFIED*

SAM: (: im amazed at the amt of time he is willing to spend with CG and each one of us even though he has SOSO much to do. to me, SAM=BUSY. but i m so grateful tt he is always willing to be there when u need him. kor,thankew for letting God to use you so mightily.(:

FRANKIE: a HAPPY MAN! heee. (: kor, your walk w God and your faith always encourages me to move on. looking at the amt of things you have to cope w, u still smile and hold on ever tightly to JESUS. (studies to glorify GOD, ur cafe-making a impact in other lives. helping dad w all u can. youth ministy.) kor, just want to say ur presence in the youth ministry meant ALOT (: always so thankful to GOD for YOU.~

CHERYL!: :D praying tt life been better for YOU. *HUGS* the ever joyful one. really praise GOD just for you. taking the first step to share and making every effort to bring us closer(:
you are the special one tt GOD loves very much. ~

SULWYN: a sister that GOD placed in my life.-ever so encouraing and smiling. i appreciate you LOADS. keep going.(:

EMILY: u are a great CG leader. (: she is not tt scary after all. haha~ thank you for being strong and pressing on.

myFAMILY: praise GOD for them. the ones to guide me thru my childhood. *praying for their salvation*

OLORD, i praise and thank you for knowing the desires of our hearts and understanding us when no one elses can. for being with us when no one else can. for loving us with everlasting love when no one can. You are great OLORD. only You understands the best. help us to keep believing and to TELL THE WORLD THAT JESUS LIVES. by Your grace, amen.

*no longer I, but Christ in me*
`yongling;

you completed my life..
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Feel the heat/ Monday, September 26, 2005

give me a break. i just want to get out of this place.
i want to cry like never before. the pain and hurt reach deep down in me.
i just want to wail and whine and cry and shout and scream with all my might!!!
the pain never go away.
i m not myself.

2005, indeed an exciting and eventful year for me. a year of sorrows, pain, hurts and joy.
i miss daddy. i miss going for family outings with my WHOLE family on sundays. i miss daddy's smiles, his JOY. its exam period again, this time a big one. i miss daddy saying," dont give yourself stress kaes? daddy never ask for much, just tt u give your best."daddy is one of the bigest encouragements in my life. he always support me in everything tt i do and assuring tt he is there with and for me. `HE is forever my beloved daddy and he is GONE forever;

i cant carry on anymore. (yes i know God will carry me thru) i want to go away. i dunwan to cross this huge barrier. i dunwan to fight this battle anymore. i cant. nothing seems to help anymore. i wish to stop running. stop walking. i want a break. iwant daddy.

tell the world tt JEsus lives, died for them and lived again?
`i failed to tell my dad.

*i m not strong, never is. i m not myself.*
yongling;

you completed my life..
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Feel the heat/ Friday, September 23, 2005

iNeed to study study study!
8more precious days to Nlevel.~
i wan to kill the paper rather than it kill me.:x

been studying in church everyday. with sarah and some of my CG girls.(: hey sometimes i just don't get what i am studying. it seems like i have done alot of stuffs but i don't feel like i understand them all. time is pressing me down and i am getting really restless. anyway, my life is not all about getting a cerf. yaya but i know i can't survive in this practical world without a cerf. whatever, i don't really care. :/

*i'll shout till the whole world hear me!*
yongling;

you completed my life..
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Feel the heat/ Wednesday, September 21, 2005

`imyourangel;
No mountains too high for you to climb
All you have to do, is have some climbing faith
No river is too wide for you to make it across
All you have to do, is believe it when you pray

And then you will see the morning will come,
and everyday will be bright as the sun
All of your fears, cast them on me
I just want you to see

I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I hear your voices when you call me
I am your Angel,
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your Angel, I'm your Angel

I saw your tear drops and i heard you cry
All you need is time, seek me and you shall find
You have everything and your still lonely
It don't have to be this way
Let me show you a better day

Then you will see, the morning will come
And all of your days will be bright as the sun
So all of your fears just cast them on me
How can I make you see?

And when it's time to face the storm
I'll be right by your side
Grace will keep us safe and warmand I know we will survive
And when it seems as if your end is drawing near
Don't you dare give up the fight
Just put your trust beyond the sky.

life's been different without daddy.and i simply miss him. this journey now seems so rocky and narrow. imagine waking up every morning seeing daddy watching the tv and walking up and down in the living room smiling. now all i see is a empty living room without dad's laughter and in another room,i heard mum's crying. my feelings?, are undescrible.

*i DO NOT LOVE emotionless.*
yongling.

you completed my life..
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Feel the heat/ Saturday, September 17, 2005

"His strength is perfect when our strength is gone.
He will carry us when we cant carry on.
Raised in HIS power, the weak became strong.
His strength is perfect, His strength is perfect."

i just miss my dad.
i love him forever.
HE is forver remembered.

yongling;

you completed my life..
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Feel the heat/ Sunday, September 11, 2005

ouch. i m sorry. i know it look disgusting. hahaa. i fell down while playing captain ball yesterday. *clusmy me* ha~one of the memorial markers in my life. hahaa! but it does hurts lah. but i din cry =) dear readers, stop eeekkk-ing at it. =p. but captain ball is really fun. played with the soccer guys too. they were quite violent actually. and andrew was injured too. and his glasses broke. poor thing. but andrew, really thanks for helping me to dress my wound.(:
CG today. was great! (: i love all the BS and worships and all those cute drawings of applications and sharing!!(: so nice and haha great time of guessing! (: i m really encouraged to see how this CG grow and how each and everyone of us become so closely bonded. its really amazing how God works. thru this CG, i learn abt of things. i learn to accept ppl for who God has created and to love them the way they are. i learn to have fun tog, to takecare of each other, to reach out and to pray together. thankew so much. all of you has made a great difference in my life. lets continue to hold firm to each other and in the same time reach out to the lost! (: we are audience of one. lets fix our eyes on Jesus and walk this journey together!(: i love all of you. we are always under construction, ya? Jesus, be the centre.

this what i drew(the sharing and applications). understand? haha. i bet you all dont. its okie. guess it then!(: its preettyy meaningful. some *memorial markers* in my life. GOD IS REAL.((: and ever faithful
p/s: hey CG, thankew for the birthday card, even though its came so late, i still like it the same. anthony(our card-marker in CG), thankew for all effort.it is really nice. (:
blessed ones: I LOVE ALL OF YOU! JIA YOU JIA YOU! remb to keep trusting kaes? exams will be fine. cheer up. find joy in all situations.(: *HUGS*

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Feel the heat/ Thursday, September 08, 2005

CG BBQ AT RUTH'S PLACE~ 5pm at woodlands.
looking forward to it man! :D
i'm under-construction!

baoling came over and stayed yesterday. she is really wei da! din sleep whole day just to do something really esp for her bf. haha. oh i violated the rules. i fall asleep. hey only 4 hours heee. oops. (: had loads fun. sisters rock for life!

you completed my life..
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Feel the heat/ Tuesday, September 06, 2005

SOCIAL STUDIES PAPER OVER!
thanks God tt merger and seperartion came out in essay! though source-based qns is such a killer but still okie lah. hahaa. chinese paper was easy(: really praise GOD. He has proven Himself faithful times and again.

was reading the book."if you want to walk on water,you've got to get out of the boat." part of it says:
LOSS OF JOY: have you ever met a deeply joyful,chronically worried person? Fear destroys joy.live in it, and you will know the pain of constant, chronic, low-grade anxiety Transcend it, and you will know delight.
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but when you live in fear, the power of the "what if" becomes over-whelming, and you will go through life without joy. Joy and fear are fundamentally imcompatible.

God's most frequently reapeated instruction-is formulated in two words: fear not.

it was really God's speaking. i was so fearful these few weeks abt Nlevels and all the "what ifs" was going round and round in my mind. i asked so many thousands "what if" but God says two words: fear not.

*trusting in the face of fear and challenge produce joy*
..yongling;

p/s: and ray, i really think u are crazy and insane. 1stly, i think u are in love w tt "nice" guy.hahaa! 2ndly, i think u should start to like ur teachers in school. 3rdly, start going straight.haha! opps. and stop talking crap on the phone, you bored boy. haha! :p ( u requested for me to include this section in my post de hor. haha! -jus for ray.-haha! lamer of all.

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Feel the heat/ Saturday, September 03, 2005

(: came back home after lesson today. the last social studies lesson before my paper starts. last week we had big breafast for breakfast.teacher's treat to WHOLE CLASS. this week we had nasi lemak. Ms sharifah is really nice. she treat more than 80pupils to movie before too!(my class and the other.) i love her lessons. she always make effort to make the lessons interesting yet easy to remb. and with her ever friendly smiles. :D

i stare at my computer for so long and wondering wad to blog about. or rather how to phrase my thoughts. u guess it. its Nlevels.wad to say? i m shaken up by the reality tt Nlevels starting on MON.*WAKEUP; slapmyself* and the worse part is tt one of my geog frens jus realised tt Nlevels paper is starting on MON. :/ i know its gonna be over soon. but now, everything seems so longg~~i can imagine the 1h 30 mins paper will be like the 1whole day lah. feeling bleah lah!. arghh. think i should go for a jog to de-stress abit. haha!yeah! open-sunday tmr! got games~=D should i study tmr? (okie the fear is back. i really hate tt feeling. sucks.)
i m going to trust God for the results and keep on smiling. yongling, jia you jia you! (:
Lord, save me for i m yours.
yongling;

you completed my life..
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Feel the heat/ Friday, September 02, 2005

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Feel the heat/ Thursday, September 01, 2005

superstar;
KELLY?
WEILIAN?

for me, i like both(: i think they are really great and daring to walk towards their dreams. esp WEILIAN. this superstar journey is doubly tough for him. all the criticism and discouragements along the way must have hurts him lots. but seeing his courage and strength to keep walking on really encourages me. despite all the struggles and problems, he stand strong and believe in himself(: kelly really great too. i love her voice. so sweet and so powerful(: holding on so strongily on her own dreams and goal. seeing her walk towards it with determination really challenges me to move towards my goals too.

final results: WEILIAN is the superstar;
well i kinda expected it too. (: He is really great. people respects him becos of his determination and love for the people ard too. and his voice is fantastic.

for us, the superstar show has ended tonight. but for weilian and kelly, it has just begin after so many months. they gonna face more challenges in the months/years ahead.

*are u going to walk towards ur dreams or continue to let it be just a dream?*
..yongling;

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