Feel the heat/ Saturday, July 08, 2006
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this is one of my fav song.hope it speaks of at least a part of how im feeling. (hmm maybe not, heh) i dont know what to blog abt but i know i love blogging, somehow to some extent. man i got like tons of work to finish and chapters to understand and catch up lah. and its sunday tmr=) floorball rocks lah.
im feeling so unreal all the times. i think im so in this process of finding my own self and knowing myself. i cant express my feelings and i felt like a fool sometimes. like what vera told me, " its simple, just be sad when u really are,cry if you need to, and be happy when you are happy!" somehow i do agree but another part of me cant do it.i felt tt i have been carrying this borrowed-joy with me for so long, tt i dont even know whose it belongs to anymore. where's yongling, the one everyone knows? i really want to have the real joy back, really.
want to do some dedications to those i been hanging out with recently. heh.:
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amanda: i hope things are getting better, really. glad to see you still walking with God. hang in there, really, HE udnerstands.
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benn: hey u have been such great friend and brother along this journey and really thanks alot, for? EVERYTHING =)
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daryl: well, what to say? hmmm =) God's really your strength. seeing you struggling with so much and i really dont know how to encourages and comfort, im sorry. but i wanna say im still walking alongside with you. jiayou! God is so REAL=)
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sarah: thankyou. really, for knowing well enough to know when im really not okays and when i really need to vent my emotions.thankyou for being with me through each struggles.
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lucille: you have no idea how much i love you too. =) run on dear.
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vera: i love witch too! its really wonderful knowing you so much better, personally. thankyou for the effort.
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mervin: hey i really seen you grow, so so so much. jiayou brother.
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eddie: hey! i wonder if you will be reading, but well anyways, im really glad to know you and studying with you is great altho you are alot smarter, i still enjoy your presence=)
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and hey aggie, really thankyou so much too.
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*goodbye to you. this time its really is goodbye.
yongling.
you completed my life..
7:57 AM <3
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