Feel the heat/ Wednesday, June 14, 2006

wow, it feel like years since i blogged! :) and it feels so good knowing that pple are reading your blog and tagging! and saying, your blog's so dead! well, cause it proves that they are reading and checking on your blog. so encouraging:) the holidays are so coming to an end:( a part of me is feeling good but the other part, i guess im going to dread school again. everytime when i think about the things tt i need to do in school, it overwhelmed me! apart from studies(which is REALLY a torture for me), there's so many pple i want to reach out too. and being the only christian(in class and level) i always felt like im doing it alone and the feeling somehow pulls me down:( having to stand alone in what im believing in and trying so hard to reflects God's unfailing love. sometimes i just feel like i have failed so badly, esp when my exams results doesnt glorify God, my school attendance(during holis too) doesnt glorify God and my attitude in school doesnt show God's love. but somehow thru all these, i feel tt and i know tt, God's working in His own ways, tt i cant see and cant understand. somehow i know He wants me to use His strength and not working on things by my own strength. and with my focus from the very beginning, to bring my classmates to Christ by the end of my sec school, i think i failed quite badly too. they came, they saw God's love and they all left. its been something im trying to really let go and let God. its easier said than done:)CG's splitting! im so looking forward but somehow there's still abit of sadness. hahaa, im looking forward also to after the split, how each and everyone will grow:) i know God is using me in little ways, and im so glad tt my life does impact others. and looking back, i really thank God for all the struggles and trials tt i had gone thru. moving on after the trials makes me a stronger person, and being able to encourage others with my own encounter with God. God is God, He works in ways we cant see. but its the perfect way:Dand hey DARYL! if you are reading:) im so encouraged by you, really. your willingness to serve and your passion to seek the lost for God. and you have really been a very encouraging brother-in-Christ, not only to me but to many others:) thanks for everything ya?im so thankful tt sarah invited you to WEFC and God brought you here! we are all winners remb? cos we have God in our hearts. :) SHINE ON!to all under construction members! take note! :LAST CG OUTING TO SENTOSA. THIS SATURADAY, 17TH OF JUNE.MEET AT HARBOURFRONT MRT AT 11AM. WE WILL GO FOR LUNCH TOGETHER 1ST. HIGHLIGHTS: THERE WILL BE SHARING AND WORSHIP AT THE BEACH :Dand oh well, i kinda miss being yongling. heh.and hey, i miss IDENTIFIED.*how can one be so sucessful in one thing and failing so badly in another.?yonglinggg.
you completed my life..
8:19 PM <3
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