Feel the heat/ Thursday, March 16, 2006
have u ever wonder how far heaven is?oh well, maybe you dont but i always do. "how far is heaven? How high above me?"and today, i realised how far heaven is, is not determined by the distance but our lives.Our God is indeed extra-ordinary. had a super WOW experience today with beryl...we went sentosa in the morning and we were still having great fun....when.., smth went really wrong. beryl, isabelle, ch'ng yi, me and benn went on a float. talking and talking, we will going further and further from the shore. out of the sudden, benn had leg cramps and so he let go of the float and shockingly, beryl let go too. so having 2 person weight down, the float lose balance, and so chng yi and belle let go too. for me? i was deciding whether to let go/ just hang on to it. but while my mind is still in a swirl, the float toppled over me and i lost hold on it. and being it at high tide, abt 3m++ high, and considering my height, i was yes, drowning. struggling to find the rest, those who can swim, i hold on to beryl and she wasnt balancing well herself too and therefore it resulted me dragging her down the sea. and after pushing her real hard down in trying to push myself up, i still cant reach the sea surface. but beryl managed to kick herself up to the surface. and feeling guilty, cos i know i push beryl too hard, i let go of her and tried to struggle on my own. moments later i saw belle hand reaching for me, though she was still quite far. but i managed to get hold to the float and yes im safe, beryl's safe too.phew* relief.me: hey i almost drown![when im getting okays]farand: [looking at me] oh i know, hmmm learn new things ah, we learn new things everyday.[smile]me: what?! [thinking aloud]i mean drown!! at tt moment, i felt SO close to heaven. its like just next to me. it may seems nothing big deal to some of you but its a testimony for me once again, seeing God's mercy and His faithfulness. and i thank God for beryl and how this incident happened. Praising Him tt we are really SAFE, i was reminded tt how precious life is. at that "drowning" or u called it struggling moment, many things/person flashed thru my mind at that very short period of fighting for survival. indeed, God's amazing. as for what gone thru my mind, [haha] tt's gonna be a secret =Dbut seriously, this incident really taught me much. thankyou beryl. *hugs*was waiting for mummy at semb station just now, i saw ppl in wheelchair. and the feeling of seeing them is unexplainable. i never felt tt way before until the ever 1st time i saw my dad in a wheelchair. the pain just hurt so deep down. mummy was at Tan Tock seng just now, her friend's husband was hospitalised and his condition was terrible bad. 3 of his blood vessels in his brain burst and there is no way to save him anymore, was the doc final say. and so techincally, he is dead but counting on the hospital facitilites to breathe, and he is not concious. which again reminds me of daddy. i really miss daddy. being strong include crying*.Daddy had always been someone whom i really respected and loved. nothing gonna change this fact.i dont like doctors, all them could say is, sorry we have done our best, and stoood there watching him go.wish you were there.* nothing but you.-yyongling;
you completed my life..
6:44 AM <3
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