my journey

moved.

2006-10-09T00:26:00.000-07:00

this blog is no longer gonna be updated.
im moved.
find me if you can.

i gonna have a new start, a new world of MY OWN. dont think you can try to creep in to my world anymore.

*on the run,
yongling.

2006-10-02T07:01:00.000-07:00

:D im back to blogging, simply love it.

was looking back at all my previous entries since i first started blogging. its like a spiritual journal, when you look back at the diff events/storms during diff seasons of life, you get the "ah-ha" i see God's faithfulness through every storm. =) in the same way, i see how i blogged abt how i feel and the diff storms of life. and yes, i see and experience God's faithfulness and truth thru it all. :D He can be silent and working at the same time.

the storms of life proves the strength of your anchor.

for those i have encouraged in ways i know/dont with my journey of life, i just want to say, i really thank God for using me to touch your lives =) in the same way, many have touched my life and all their blessings and love had a great impact on me and it really made all the difference. God is good, indeed.

i failed my prelims badly, like crazy. and i know alot of ppl out there failed too, but you know pls take heart, (and you know, you cant be worse.=) ) things will get better. i feel like crap when i get my results and im like "whatever lah, i dont care anymore" but i realised tt's not the attitude man. its rather hard to convince yourself tt its okay, but really, just try again =)

mummy been sick, something's wrong with her ear and blood. pray k. i been acc her recently and seriously, im getting rreally tired. studying at late nights in order to accompany her in the day. pray for mummy's health and tt i will continue to be a good testimony at home k? thanks fellow warriors.

for those having major exams now, dont focus on your exams and results ok? focus on something bigger and more reliable. GOD. focus on JESUS. jiayou ok? i know it may sounds cliche but really pray. :)

alrights, gg to study soon. aw, thinking whether i should go school tmr. = ( oh bother.

He will be your joy.
yongling.

:) all for God!

2006-09-27T07:29:00.000-07:00

hey yes, this entry is meant for ppl, yes you. =)

amanda: hey dear, thanks! i read your blog. and ya, misses! :D Nlevels nearer ya? and i know you can do it, just keep going k? i dont know much abt what's gg on in your life now, but im sure there is a time for everything. *hugs* i really thank God for this chance to watch you grow, to laugh with you, pray for you, and just being there to encourage and love you, a dear sister in Christ. =) thankyou amandaa, you encourage me alot too, you know? your life is amazing, and im sure tt thru your struggles, more will come to see tt our God is really real and true. He never leave us, never. just hang in there k?, its going to be over soon.

beryl: girl ah. =) like what i said, it will be over really really soon. i really praise God for restoring this precious sisterhood. with God's strength, =) i pray tt this sistership will cont to grow deeper and deeper! you keep running k? our God is bigger!

caryn: hey =) altho its been quite some time since we talked, i hope things getting okays for you. im glad tt you been growing in the Lord too. you are not forgotten, really. (:

rays: wei~ feel tt its been years lah, hahaa. hope poly have been great, really. and CF is even better eh? :) keep loving the Lord ya? glad tt your qt been consistent now!~ meet up soon, sorry im really busy with school, arghh. its okays lah, i know you will understand, ha. study hard ya?! :D

sul: =) dont stress over work k? jiayou jiayou, God's grace is sufficent.

eric: its really nice talking to you too! stay eric. :D

life's been good. more than anything, its all choices. :) my friend told me before, leave no room for regrets. but i think abt it and i look at his life and i wonder, did he ever regret choosing to be who he is today? hmmm leaving God can never be a choice. pls, i plead. but God is good lah, there's freewill, it must have hurt Him so much to see his child leave...

i have decided! , to follow Jesus. :D

alrightys, shall sleep now. school tmr, cant dont go tmr, cause i didnt go today. heh.

everyday, i'll walk with you, my LORD!

rejoice! my God is mighty to save.

2006-09-26T00:12:00.000-07:00

ahhhhh :( :(

my com is well! recovered liao, haha. BUT BUT, :( all my savedPHOTOS gone! my brother forgot to back them up, :( but oh well, thank God he remb all my songs=) okays lah, its im pretty sad but its quite true tt some things are gone means gone liao. dont cry over spill milk ya? :)

indeed, new start. its like a new computer. (:

going to study soon, been going to school eh. school been hmmm nt bad actually. everyone is signing on tt class photo, haha. graduation mah, its such a standard thing. autograph and stuff. its kinda happy feeling yet aw, leaving you all soon kinda thing. yep, all the memories will lastt. but come to think about it, 1-2 years after graduation, how many will still be in contact? altho there will be=) thing back about primary school. heh.

came home straight after school these weeks, not been going out to study. home's good too. (= kinda miss cafe and pool games now. aw. but ya lah, study first. and movie partner, i miss watching movies! my teacher told my friend before, " whatever is worth doing in life, is difficult. so work hard." and i realised how true it is! many say tt prelims are meant to be failed, hahaa, what nonsense. but well, for my school i think yes it is. students in other schools compared results, is how many A1/2? my school? hahaa, we compared how many passes, and with the worst subjects, we compared who failed the worst. hahaa/ this school is really horrible lah. in my school, it dont feel bad to fail anymore, cause we have the whole level to fail with you! ha.

God have been opening my eyes to see alot of things, even in daily life. i realised again how much He love each and EVERYONE ard me, and how He has a purpose for others too.i see how life can be such meaningful just having God in my life. just look at the nature ard us, pause and look. (: when i look at diff ppl tt passes thru my life each day, i pray a prayer tt one day, we will worship God together. everyone is so unique, so different, so special in God's eyes. amazing eh? how God can love each of us the same, not more not less. have you allowed life's adversities to discourage and immobilize you? try reading acts 16:25. paul still choose to worship God. God is still faithful when we are not. and when we cant see God, trust Him. recently, i have been discouraged, but God spoke to me ytd. (: hope it encourages you too! there is nothing like His love.

will you say to God, i'll love You forever?

5weeks left to Olevels. ah, i must remb to POSITIVE self-talk myself. so it should be, 5more weeks to Olevels :D

alrightys! going off to toryure myself now. enjoy yongling, bummer.

pray for me! PLS

2006-09-24T23:54:00.000-07:00

hey! oh crap, my com is like down lah. but only can use awhile. so going to blog fast. AHH. miss the "taking own sweet time to blog" feeling.

okays anyway, my prelims results sucks. oh dont bother asking.

im blogging cause i want to return tags.im so encouraged to see so many ppl tagging:

eric! - hey you tagged=) ya im trying to mug hard for Os, one word- hard. aw.

tim- =) ya, sets!

MAX- ha,=) remb my biscuits and the promise ah! =P and i will really get well soon i think. heh.

nat- thanks dear.

ximin- =) yepps, you keep walking too k?

daniel- yea lah, keep studying ah, im dying liao lah.

meiteng- thanks for dropping by, it really encourages me.

alrightsy, chao! run! =)

oh, pls pray for me ya? hmm ok, in all aspects of life, haha. :D loves many.

2006-09-16T06:24:00.000-07:00

studied at causeway point today with sarah. blur her forgot she got usher meeting today, so we went back to church at 2plus. we met KQ they all all cwp, they watching movie=) oh tt MAX gonna get it from me, what a movie partner! aw. =/ heh. i went for service and yepps met my mummy for dinner. sarah join us too! loves.

sermon was pretty confusing for me. maybe i was really tired after the studying and lack of sleep. but it seems really huh? =) well, i intending to go again tmr.the worship was pretty good. (:

aw, i think i really screwed my prelims, im pretty serious.

i really thank God for restoring this precious sistership between me&beryl, really(: *hugs beryl*

i feel like playing pool, really. now now now. =/

i want to be happy, aw happy! =/

my com got some problem, dont know what kinda of virus, so irritating. keep saying my computer in danger. =( *SCREAM* AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

alrights, i think i going to go off liao. HAHAA

i very bored. ah, think abt life. in such chaos. AAHH.

*dance with my father
If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him,I'd play a song that would never ever end
How I'd love love love, to dance with my father again

Later that night, when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me

If I could steal One final glance
One final step One final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
Cause I'd love love love to dance with my father again

Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
I'd hear how my mother cried for him(x2)
I'd pray for her even more than me

I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But dear Lord she' s dying to dance with my father again

hear me from heaven.
yongling.

take, take, take it all.

2006-09-14T19:39:00.000-07:00

new blogskin. (=

well i guess i like the previous random one. haha, brpwn&pink. =)
but new start ah! haha, i think i will be changing one soon too. =P
had my science paper1 tis morning. i woke up late today! for the past 2 years i nv wake up late for school, but today! oh crap. i woke up at 6.42am. when i saw my phone timing, i was so shocked lah. like what?! and of course, i jumped out of bed! :/ the texi fare cost mt 5bucks lah, damm expensive can! aw, stupid sucharges. but the paper was pretty alrights.

im going east coast later! loves=) looking forward to it man! hey meRv&weisheng, sorry ah. [dont feel like explaining, haha, come to think of it, there's nth much to explain too, heh.]

was pondering about life. hmm life's short. but it seems pretty long. there's different stages, different seasons of life. ups&downs. struggles&trials. joy&sorrows. well, some come out of it stronger, some back out. there's bound to be disappointments, with others, yourself and perhaps God. but think abt it, how bad can life be with God in control? God may seems out of control to us when we are in a terrible hurting situation, but He never will be. its one thing to know tt He is never out of control, but its another thing to believe. ya? i cant say i totally understand this, but well im trying pretty hard to stay on track with our Heavenly Father. hey fellow warriors, i just want to say keep walking, and i hope my life have been an encouragement& testimony of God's faithfulness. when you cant see Him, trust Him. dont give up, no matter what happen. cause Jesus paid the price, no matter the cost. run, yongling.

declared, broken. moulding in process.
*steven curtis chapman
I can see tears filling your eyes
And I know where they're coming from
They're coming from a heart that's broken in two
By what you don't see

I've watched the wind blow hard against you
And I have seen your faith get weakened by the pain
And I want you to know that I will be praying for you
To hold on

Don't let the fire die
The flame has been dimmed by the tears that you cry
But I can still see the spark of His love in your eye
So don't let the fire, please don't let the fire die
This heavy weight you carry around
Of letting yourself and everybody down
Is pouring water on the passion that use to burn so bright

Well I know you've got your reasons for resentment
And I know it's more than I can understand
So just let me say that I am going to be praying for you
To let it all go

JESUS, take it all...

aw, mug dears.

2006-09-13T23:11:00.000-07:00

heyheyheyheyheyheyheyheyheyheyhey.

i had my accounts paper one today. hahaa. no comments=)

aw, i got practical on monday. :(

i went tekong ytd. like i said before, i really like there. its windy lah, walking along the jetty, the feeling is like going to a beach resort. hah, loves. oh anyway, its my brother POP! yeah, he was really happy. (:

suppose to go ikea with my brother today, but its raining now! :( bleahs. ohoh and i want to go on curise end of year! :D im really serious lah, and im gg to ask my friends! cos no more major exams so, heh, no more excuses. =P

hmm life been as usual. ytd is the 13th. :( miss-ed

alrights, i think i should get going, to dont know what/where. ha, i gg east coast park tmr! run along.

the deepest dream i had ever known! <33

=) mug

2006-09-11T00:28:00.000-07:00

finally its done. new skin=)

oh i had such fun ytd. went cafe to mug alittle bit and played pool.but play POOL so much more lah.=) had dinner with meRv, weisheng & kor. really great. thanks!

had my papers today. oh wells, it should be okays lah. anyway its over! =) few more papers to GO!

alrightys, blog again soon lah. nothing much, i going to mug alrdy! its MUGGING TIME.

kor! -i want ice-cream! =) honey crabs, yummy. must cheer up k? your room will be ready soon, i will mess it up! =P loves.

meRv- hey. =) you just online. haha, but i gg offline liao, alrights, know you gg to scream at me liao, RUN!

weisheng- hey!pool's fun! i win you twice! i'll beat you again next time!

byeeeeee. iLOVE random-ness!

what will it be like?

2006-09-01T08:51:00.000-07:00

i can only imgaine.

for the longest time i refused to ask God why. but this time...:

why is Your love is deep, so strong& everlasting?

why is this journey of life so hard to walk on?

why does everything happens out of the sudden& so quickly?

why do pple come and go?

why do you know who will enter heaven and yet there's free choice?

why do you take my father away?

why is it me?

why is it my family?

how am i going to accept tt everything its part of your plan?

how am i going to worship?

why is my relationships with pple failing?

why do you love me?

why can i only imagine?

why am i such a failure?

why me?

why?

why are you so silent?

why dont you heal me?

why cnt things just be simpler?

why is it diff view me diff?

why cant i love you as much as most of THEM do?

why?

will i dance for you, JESUS?

how hurt can i be, man..i can only imagine.

mugmug and MUG.

2006-08-31T20:06:00.000-07:00

=) =) MUG MUG MUG.

received a msg from emily!<3

went shopping ytd, with an objective k. and yes i met my objectives. brought my wanted to buy stuff=) went tecman! <333>

neeting sarah later, i want to go mount zion. need to get something else other than that for kor. =) must cheer him up lah, i so good right? :D goingover to church to study, and for JPM at night. been so long since i study in church, miss mugging with you guys.! loves. =) memories memoires, (:

alot of times i see many pple get disappointed with leaders and even with peers. but arent all these disappointments due to our own expectation? we are all humans, we fails but God dont. He stand by us and even when others break their promises, God dont. He gives us hope. my prayer is that we all will learn to lean on God ALONE and well, when things doesnt go well between our relationships with pple, it SO SO shouldnt be the reason we leave church, really. cos coming to church is so much more than being with friends, hanging out and sports.

life is more than what you think.

grow up, please.

Every beat of my heart, breath that I take

Through the seasons that change

Your love remains

My hiding place, my home

:) i m eating mango pudding now! loves. and mummy makes GREAT AND WONDERFUL mango pudding, yummy. :D i know its random, but i really want to eat sushi buffet soon, like now. and i want eat steamboat and crabs with kor![please? :( ] and i want go out with kor soon! man, im craving for polar puffs and cakes. :( :( movie partner, where are you! heh.

You're my deepest dream I know(:

prelims started =((

2006-08-30T02:20:00.000-07:00

Blessed be Your name

On the road marked with suffering

though there's pain in the offering

Blessed be Your name

through the seasons that change, Your love remains.

2006-08-28T05:34:00.000-07:00

nice blogskin.=) loves.

oh and i want to promote the sfc's blog. all thanks to beryl=)

http://shineforchrist-.blogspot.com

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im having a fever. man, i screwed my papers today. dont really care anymore lah, =) no choice ah.

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daryl: hey=) thanks for the book ya? thanks for accompanying me at semb park too. hahaa, i want to go again soon=)

sarah: thanks too. your company means more than words.

kor! : sorry =)

alrights man, run for CHRIST! love you pple. =) gonna study, chinese paper on wed. =)

2006-08-25T22:29:00.000-07:00

what its gonna take to make you realised?

p/s: yongling's wont be ard for few days, last minute runaway.

2006-08-21T07:33:00.000-07:00

olevels english oral tmr! crap, im so dead. argh...

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sorry, i really tried. i know you are really hurt by me.and i guess i know how you feel cos i know the feeling of being hurt terribly. i hope you will in time to be willing to restore this sistership. i really want you to know i still treasure this sistership and listen to this: once a sister always a sister. i hope yu can choose to forgive. loves.

running marathon!

2006-08-17T23:02:00.000-07:00

wow, i have not been online for alomst ten days=)
mug, mug , mugging.

oh and im so proud of myself, i attended school the whole week this week! you may think its nothing big deal but to me it required millions of strength to go thru the whole week=) and what i been holding on thru the week is this: "cos when we see You, we find strength to face the day..." God is good.

this school week has been "lonely" cause my partner has not been in school for 3days. but well, altho she's not ard, i realised how much closer me and my other classmates become=) thanks pple! -and ZY, jas, you been really fun to laugh with. hahaa! next week prelims, AHHHH*

=) might be going over to lucille's place to study later.

had morning run today, my knee hurts like crazy lah. but God carry me thru 2rounds! loves. and during chinese lesson today the feeling was terrible=) cos im re-taking chinese! but God has been good=) he is sustaining me!

thru this long week, i found tt love once again. really, tt love tt never fails, the love tt held me, the love tt gives hope, the love tt carry me=) been thinking of God's love.. how can He love such a person like me, really, so unworthy, so sinful, so horrible. and again, God never fails to remind me how great His love is. experiencing His mercy and grace.. He is indeed slow to anger and abounding in love.

*He gave himself unselfishly
caused my blinded eyes to see
it was you and me He had in mind
on the road to calvary
i've never known such perfect love
i had fallen down but he picked me up

it really encourages me=) :
"when asked to describe the weight of His love, Jesus stretched one hand to the right, and the other to the left, and had them nailed in that position. so you would know He died...loving you."

No event in history is as important as the cross. All of history has been changed because of this one passionate event. For you and for me the Cross has made all the difference.

alrights, jiayou fellow warriors.=)

[vera]: im really sorry. =) really wanna talk to you soon, abt anything. praying for a bond tt will never break=)

He died..loving you.

yongling

2006-08-09T07:31:00.000-07:00

take My hand and walk

don't live in the past

cause yesterday's gone

wishing memories would last

you're afraid to carry on

you don't know what's comin'

but you know the one who holds tomorrow

I will be your guide

take you through the night

if you keep your eyes on Me

happy national day. haapy birthday ailing=) loves!

tmr no school=) but im going church tmr to play floorball! then hmm, maybe going home 1st to study and chill for awhile then go movie with kunquan and kor! :D i wanna eat sushi buffet! i want eat cakes. *yumyums*i want a break, and eh i got it! tmr gonna be fun, it better be=) and yes, i finished my homework!loves. oh crap, im so dead can, fri taking back Olevels chinese results=( =/ okays tt's quite random.

wanna do smth that i havent done for quite some time:

*missionaryinmaking!:

hey hows' life? i have nt been going down to church to study, hahaa, lazy lah. =) oh and i like looking for verse lah, dont regret or feel bad asking me kkk? haha, and the apple crumble nice can! thanks daryl=) you been a friend, really=)

*twin&lu:

hey=) hmmm i miss ruth... and ya, anyways hows' preparation for Os? i bet everything been okays, perhaps not super well and smooth but okay right? =) jiayou dears we all can make it, really.

nat!*

man, you have no idea how much i love hanging out and laughing with you=) jiayou too kaes? you been fun and you been really cool. you spice up my life girl=) loves.

joanne*

=) thankyou for always encouraging me to study and to jiayou, everything been getting better really. i love just how much we live so close to each others. i love you house! =)

vera*

yes, we are diff yet quite similiar. =) i like the way how we almost always offend each other, heh. study hard.

kor*

hey=) surprise! hahaa, yaya, im still under some depression. but kor, thanks for still being ard, really.you aresomeone really special from God!dont let the fire die=) burn on kor. loves.

beryl*

hope things are getting better. love you still!

ahying! :

hahaa, dont know whether you will read this, but ya. =) its nice knowing you and amazing how we become friends. frankly, i was quite disappointed on tues. like how we seems to cant decide where to go and stuff. so in the end, i expected us to call off everything. but well,tt's what makes us so common right? haha we are all indecisive.im fine alrdy. looking forward to fri, results&crapping w you girls.!

alrights, let me think, i should be sleeping now. hahaa. and being random, im off! BYE =)

lalalalalalala~

oh and mervin's back! =)

long one=)

2006-08-05T18:04:00.000-07:00

okays, lets talk abt my week. to simplify it to one word it will be SICK.

sunday-6aug.
didnt go for service cause went ytd alrdy. and man, i cant go sentosa cause im just recover from my fever. im sad, sad! but well, mucst obey mummy. okays, and what im gonna do today is STUDY STUDY STUDY=( hopefully can meet the rest for dinner later.

sat-5aug
had vegetarain buffet with my aunts and mum in the morning, man, i really dont like but well, mummy drag me along. arghh. but okays lah, just keep quiet and smiled lah. went church to study today. finish 2short chapters&1 chpt for chem=)! then went for service today. it was good lah, a good time of releasing everything to God=) met sarah and daryl at cwp to zap smth. had dinner tog. cant finish my food, ah=( laugh lah laugh so much. KUNQUAN ALL UR FAULT :D

fri-4aug
today was bad. i was on mc. so i stayed at home the whole day. man, i was so alone can. =( and i vomitted 4times. so disgusting can! =( and i felt so pathetic and sad lor! no one's at home. ya and many of them was at JPM, and i cant go=( and i feel so super sick. can faint anytime tt kind. =( then i call my 2nd bro he nv pick up,nv call back. then nummy at work. elder bro in army. rays&jo at Jpm. call kor SO MANY TIMES nv pick up=( i was so so so so sad lah. but ya lah, just go back and sleep after buying&eating my own dinner alone. ...

thurs-3aug
woke up feeling unwell.so didnt go school. and my fever got worse, so mummy cook something soupy and light for me and brought me to the doc. 38.6degrees. still alive lah. but was really feeling horrible. argh. ya 6kinds of med lah. see also wanna cry lah. mummy din work today cause im sick. =)

wed-2aug.
wah, today was a LONG day can. every wed also so long=( and we had chem prac as usual. and me, dont know whether because i was sick, under stress, clumsy, i broke my test tude while heating it up for the 1st time. i was so shocked.seeing the test tude drop on the floor, haha the feeling and scene was so undescrible. ha! went home after the long day, feeling so crappy and sick. feeling cold and hot, argh. sick can then got fever=(

mon&tue-31july&1aug.
normal.

hey ZHENGYING=) thanks for helping me zap the book! LOVES=) hahaa, and i know you miss me!

okays now i need to do smth tt im arrow to do. arghh, cant say no cause its my senior BIGfreak command one, ha, so being the nicest smallFREAK as always, i will! =) dont you agree, big FREAK? *smiles*

7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME:
1) im blessed beyond measure=)
2) i can laugh non-stop&randomly.
3) im quite random.
4) im taking Sstupid O's this year=(
5) i need to wear specs since pri2.
6) im super sturbborn. and i mean super.
7) i hate medicines as much as i dont really like docs.

7 THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
1) bettles&cockcroach. *PUKE*
2) nt being close w kor anymore.
3) not studying hard enough, when i see the rest mugging so hard=(
4) losing loved ones.
5) horror movies.
6) punks&gothic ppl *scary can, dont like*
7) not walking closely w God.

7 RANDOM THOUGHTS AT THE MOMENT:
1) i want to go sentosa=(
2) why am i doing this?
3) im supposed to be studying!
4) i want to go shopping soon! =((
5) movies with MAX SOON! -de-stress can.
6) im hungry but dont feel like eating.=(
7) i dont want to grow up, i hate changes=(

7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
1) whatever lah.
2) where are you?
3) okays lah.
4) very tired!
5) i want to sleep=(
6) and then?
7) i dont know.

7 PEOPLE TO DO THIS:
1) sarah
2) daryl
3) mervin(he's in thailand! =) )
4) zhengying
5) abel
6) kunquan
7) amanda

7 WEIRD THINGS ABOUT ME:
1) i love and hate studying.
2) i love singleness!
3) i hate prunes& rasin& blueberry but almost everyone ard me loves it.
4) i can talk&laugh non-stop if i want to, but i can be quiet if i feel like it.
5) i love watching movies with kor&"max" :D
6) i love puppies but im scare of them.
7) i can feel smart this moment and dumb another=(

okays big FREAk, im done finally=)

cheerio! (copyright! :D )

all that i could ever hope for.

2006-07-27T03:18:00.000-07:00

having creativity day tmr. no lessons but there's activity.

this week have been pretty fine. minus all the tiredness&piles of school work. man, felt like such an influence. anyways, school work have really been catching up with me and im kinda breathless. endurance is the word. having mock exam again tmr, social studies.

oh guess what i miss. i miss meeting up with all of you. again i say, its such irony. how i feel tt we are suddenly so close & perhaps even the sense of belonging is there, we arent tt close actually. somehow i felt tt we cant really communicate properly. hahaa, when it comes to languages, the problems lies with me lah. hahaa, but i guess things are getting better now. =) and to say, i miss studying in church too. hahaa, but i want to be home, good girl eh.=)

and yes joanne, perfection in God's eyes.

something to share: the cave named failure.
The hardest thing about being in the cave is that you begin to wonder whether God has lost track of you. Did He forget His promises? Does He remember where i am? Will i ever be anywhere nit in the cave? Will i die in here?

There is one thing you need to know. the cave is where God does some of His best work in moulding and shaping human lives.Sometimes, when all the props and crutches in your life get stripped away and you find you have only God, you discover that God is enough. sometimes, when your worse fear of inadequacy are confirmed and you discover that you really are out of your league, you experience the liberation of realising that it is okay to be inadequate and that God wants His power to flow through your weakness.

sometimes the cave is where you meet God, for God does some of His best work in caves.

David knew about failure. He spent about ten years of his life in the wilderness on the run. From a human perspective it looked as if God's promises to him never come true.

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something else to share: soar, run and walk.
i think that sometimes in Jesus's life-as when He was on the Mount of Transfiguration or when he called his friend lazarus out of the tomb- Jesus soared. he rose so high in spirit that no one could keep up with him. He was in the jet stream.

at other times- as when he wept over the defiance of Jesusalem, when he was frustrated with the slowness of his disciples, when he faced opposition of religious leaders- life was tougher. Yet he kept running. he did not turn aside from the course even when it ran uphill. he could run a long way.

but when it came time to take the road to calvary, he wasnt soaring. when the cross was placed on his brusied and bleeding back, he wasnt running. He walked. he was a young man, but he stumbled and fell that day.all he could do was get back up and walk some more.

sometimes, walking is all we could do.but in those times. walking is enough. maybe it is when life is the hardest, when we want so badly to quit, but say to God, " i wont quit, i'll keep putting one foot in front of the other. i'll take up my cross. i'll follow Jesus even on this road." maybe God prizes our walking even more than our soaring adnour running.

in any case, at a cost that none of us will ever fully understand, Jesus walked up to calvary. He took upon Himself, on the cross, all the brokenness of the human race.

this two short passages adapted from "if you want to walk on water, you've got to get out of the boat." encourages me much. i read them before and today when i suddenly took it out again,i flip and saw these. you know, God is always so faithful. He reminds of us of everything.

like what i shared with some of you before, i cant soar high now, cant even run with all my might, but im still walking. this phrase of mine comes from after reading the book. its really encouraging. and to assure, im still walking. and i know you will hold me accountable=)

in Christ the Lord, i placed my trust. and i found the glory in the power of the cross.

my souce of strength, source of hope.

yongling-g-putting one foot after the other in front.

all of you.

2006-07-24T06:02:00.000-07:00

i was supposed to be studying but i went online just to check out e-mails and stuff and again reading blogs and i chanced upon yours. -missionaryin aking. indeed there is too much unsaid friction between alot of us. and i guess lets talk it out ya?

missionaryinmaking- hey, 1stly im truly and very sorry to affect you, by things tt have been happening in my life recently. i admit i have nt been handling my walk with God very well, and nt handling my emotions well too. and indeed there is so much so struggle with, both known and un-known to others. and yes, we each have our own struggles. hey, i really just want to say tt, i really appreciate you. lets nt get affected by each other struggles k? i mean put aside all the problems and lets run tog for God. just keep running alrights? and something i need to apologise, sorry tt i have nt been the joyful and bubbly yongling tt you thought i was. and i know i have nt been joyful recently, and im really sorrys. but trust me cos im sure i will be who im really soon, being independent and yet dependent on Christ alone. guess last year till this year have indeed been a draining year for me and lets just keep praying as i struggled on and wrestle with God. keep me accountable. i hope i will walk out of it, being stronger and being able to say, i may stumbled but i wont fall. thanks friend, its been really wonderful knowing you in such short period of time and being able to relate.=) run on!

my twin- hey know you are hurt and everything. but i also know you have a faith big enough to move mountains, i know you can do it cause your strength comes from God. i have alot to learn from you too. really. and keep going too ok? indeed so much had happened tt i really dont know how to handle and how to even face myself. realising and knowing so many flaws abt myself is one thing and being willing to share and to face it is another. ya? like what i said to daryl i will say to all of you, keep me accountable. i really dont want to fall, but i know im slowly moving away from alot of things...

my partner in assisting CG: hey=) doubt u will ever read this post cos u are running out of time for studies. glad we talked and met up. thankyou for waking me up to reality and making me think. of everything, life, cg, relationships with ppl and even studies. much more to struggle and learn, and im glad God placed you in this tog with me. loves.

the one who wants to help me with my maths: hey you are really kind you know. heh=) guess i nv tell you before, but really, its been such joy knowing you so much better and seeing you grow in Christ. thankyou for your constant reminder tt im nt alone and your actions really show.really, thankyou. just keep praying k?

the one who just shaved his hair: hey there=) know poly have been a hassle for you sometimes and you are really tighted up with school work. hey, dont get discouraged k? by shcool work, and even by us. im sorry for nt treating you well sometimes, im really sorry. but i want to say, you are my good friend. really, being in the same cg and always hanging out with you is cool, more cool than you can imagine. thankyou for changing so much for the sake of JESUS, He is pleased with you.

eddie: hey dont know whether you will ever chanced upon my blog but hey, here's a small section just for eddie=) knowing and hanging out with you these months have been more tha great. your willingness and cheerfulness is really something i admired and tt makes you easy to communicate to. and man, you know smth? you are so smart can? =) study hard and jiayou k? im nt gg to push any religious stuff down your throat but eddie, i just want to say you have been an answered prayer to alot of us. love studying tog with you too! =) smarties sounds like a good name for eddie!

the one who i hurt super deeply: hey girl, im sorry. i know nothing i say now can make u feel better. i know i have hurt you. but girl, the point now is tt im willing to change, and you must response. it takes two hand to clap.

rays: hey my good friend, brother-in-Christ, listener, lecturer and neighbour! =) hahaa, suprise! hahaa. no la, just want to say thankyou for coming down to admiralty to pass me the X-box controllers. sorry for being quite nt myself. things happened and its a long story, tell you next time if i ever have the time.=) and hey, thankyou for being patient with me, guess no one else would, hahaa. you know what i mean lah.

okays, go to rush off. need to plan my revision schedule.

oh my life mission statement! :

leading a Christ-centred life daily as a teachable&joyful follower of Jesus. Intentionally sharing His love to others and being dependent on His strength alone.

yongling-g :D

Abba.

2006-07-21T08:48:00.000-07:00

experiencing God differently in different seasons of your life.

this special season, may God continue to be that eternal Father.

=)

2006-07-20T07:53:00.000-07:00

after leaving the school, i think the thing i will really miss is the every single rule we break tog and the smiles and laughter.

if i leave Singapore, the thing i will really miss is church(everythng) and my kor.

*its one thing to forgive yourself for doing the wrong thing, its another thing to forgive yourself for not doing the right thing you should.
*its one thing to be loved, but its another matter to love.

yongling.

i love random-ness!

2006-07-19T05:57:00.000-07:00

*smile* i finally finished my maths year paper, after so long. thank God tt he's my discipline=)

oh and this week have been really packed for me! okays the later part of the week pack-er haha.

wed- lessons till 4plus. man, its continuous, doesnt sounds tiring but man, it really is. drained lah.

thurs- tests till 4plus. physics class till 5plus. foloow up maybe till 6plus? =)

fri- mock exams- whole syllbus of chem and phy paper-full. argh, then after that got stupid lame EL-prelims oral. =(( after that, meeting up with lucille and sarah for prayers and then... LTP201. bet it will be such a long day..*yawn*

okays now what?

sleeping time soon! heee, havent been sleeping early in many years. hahaa. watching tv show with mummy now. and im multi-tasking again~ as usual. heee.=)

mummy's so nice, she brought bread for me for tmr breakfast~ loves loves.

come to think of it, studies have been quite a barrier. i miss meeting up with pple, and esp going to cafe and finding kor=(

[kor, u still owe me breakfast! =((( ]

oh and i think i been quite a good girl, cause i off my tv and concentrate on studies just now and i been staying at home these weeks.=) and i really miss shopping! and perhaps working, cos i will have money, heee =P okays, 4more months of enduring and i can go on shopping spree~! =) and perhaps even travelling! loves loves =)) okays, jiayou!

*the love of Christ must be shared! let His Joy be my strength.

nothing without Christ, yongling-g*

Jesus, be the center

2006-07-18T03:52:00.000-07:00

weekdays are becoming so packed and breathless for me. i suddenly start to realised tt there are quite a number of commitments in my life now, which are making me breathless and kinda overwhelmed. let's see...

1. of course, to do daily QT and spend Quality time with God.

2. taking care of mummy and making sure i have been a good girl. and in this aspect there are much to be elaborate. -big responsibility, esp now tt both brothers arent around at home.

3. studies. besides just dragging myself to school every morning, i need to have tt discipline to study when i get home everyday at 5-6plus. =( this point 3 is such a killer for me lah.

4. sundays- helping out with CG stuff- this part is what i called joy sometimes.

5. sundays- being there for pple who need to talk to me=)

6. attending LTP201 on fridays.- to have better understanding of the session before sunday to help get the ball rolling in CG.

7. follow up with my dearest girls- something tt i really enjoy also. but its hard for us to come up with a date to meet up sometimes, cos we all have national exams. but im glad we still do.

8. SFC- Shining For Christ. my dearest captain's ball commitment. 2nd and 4th saturadays of the month. -constantly keeping the joy and reaching out to newcomers.

9. meeting up with lucille and sarah- prayer partners. we meet together almost every week to pray for anything, everything- missions, youth ministry, ourselves, pple, Cg..etc.

10. EE- i need to go and memorise everything and test myself again and again. must put in more effort to make things right!

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as i think about the many things which i need to do, i realised how my focus shift , from the cross to all these earthly issues. and again, putting Christ back into tt throne in my life is another big challenge. but well, everything will be well when Christ is back on the throne and when we place our worries and burdens on Him =)

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through these months, i also realised how much i have changed. in attiude, character and the way i relate to ppl. i became more self-centered, more hack-care about about of things. and definately i became more and even lazier than last time. im quite a slacker now but the other part of me is panic-ing about Olevels. and yes, i think i became really "whatever lah, kinda of person." and i guess when i say whatever, most of the times i really mean it, and i dont care. which is like so bad can?! arghh, i think im alittle better last time. but well, it all boils down to the fact tt im nt really in the right track with God and ya. keep going keep going...

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okays, need to go work on my undone tons of work. hear that? they are calling me! =(

JESUS SHALL BE THE FOCUS AGAIN.

*You hold my world in the palm of Your hands.
yongling-g

:)

2006-07-17T04:27:00.000-07:00

=) Olevels chinese listening compre was okays. pretty fine=)
went to see doc after that. but forgot to take MC =( the doc says i have very bad sore infection.. blah blah blah.
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oh and tmr its tuesday le, again. man tt means one more day to EL-prelims oral. i hate it lah. =( i hate EL oral, so scary. and im SO bad at it.
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nothing much to say or rather complain abt here. hahaa, =) cause some things are better left unsaid remb? =P okays anyways, aiyo, i still having bad bad bad headache. and hey im supposed to be studying.=)
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i want to eat birthday cake=( miss it for few years liao.
i LOVE MANGO CAKE. <33333star*>one. :(
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iLOVE ice-cream WAFFLES too. <3333 face="arial" color="#ffccff" size="4">
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JESUS! be the reason tt i live again. pls. =)
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to the one who claimed i owe him waffles(but i didnt! =P) : hey, dont feel too torn in between ya? but i know it may be impossible, but continue to focus on God k? if nt all our problems suddenly seems so BIG. dont think too much, CHRIST in the center and things will go well.and oh well, as i was telling you, i feels like im slowly drifting away... but somehow i was reminded by something someone told me years ago, " im encouraged by how you realised tt you are slowly walking without God but you wont stop there, you make extra effort to sail doubly hard back to Him. " and well, hahaa, i dont know lahh, but i will keep on walking, and in times i will run faster. hahaa, better train and keep your pace tog with mine ah! =)) and hey, i wont give up. :)
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to the one who always "suan" me! : hahaa, wondering whether you will know its you anot, so make it more obvious k. you just changed a new blogskin and its you made it yourself one. and u like to say LOL. :D hahaa, anyways, i just want to say im really thankful tt you have the patient to teach me maths and just talking to me! :) and yes, you encouraged me much by just showing you care for the pple ard you! and ya, you too pls start studying hard too, remb you can do it~ :) and stop nudge-ing me on msn now! heh. =D
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okays okays. im so looking forward to meet up with my dearest follow-uppies this thurs. maybe cant make it at ikea le this time, i got class till 5. :( and meeting lulu and sarah this fri(: and i guess my exams are looking forward to meet me too :( :(
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lalalalalalalalalaaa~ oh pray for me can, tt my fever will nt keep coming back, and yes i will takecare from now on=) being a good girl in this aspect ah. :) :) health are important.

to you.

2006-07-15T07:30:00.000-07:00

its weird thinking of how close we were, but actually we arent at all. im really sorry. i din mean to hurt anyone of you and i know you all din mean to hurt me too. but the more often i see you all, i realised tt we are actually so different. but in the bad sense somehow. but ya, different.
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im really sorry. i really dont know what i can say, i know im terrible but well if you say so. i was thinking of what to blog abt, cause there is so much i need to tell each of you, but nothing comes to my mind.
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the one who calls me ah yong: i just want you to know u hurt me and im sorry tt i hurt you as much. i know u arent accusing but i felt accused. it seems like im nt trying and im making alot of excuses for everything but....well, i hate explaination. sorrys. and im glad to see you rising up and reaching out, putting in so much effort to do everything. keep going. right now, i only can walk, cant run tog with you, but i will be far behind.
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the one who lends me his ipod: =) hey thanks for being a friend. a true friend. everything, and esp being there all the times. all the "you okays?" with big assuring smiles. thankyou so much. hope to know you much better, really. looking forward to the day when we could really have sharing. the Christ-centred friendship. =)
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my twin: im sorry too. but i realised also tt this friendship isnt what i always thought it is. maybe its just all the expectations. im sorrys.
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my dearest follow-up-pies: sorrys. i really hope tt you all are nt getting used to life without follow up and me ard. i know i have nt been involved in your lives. im really sorry, some times i just hope tt i could try harder, at least to make you all feel more loved, i know i been such a failure, im really sorry.
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mountain girl: i know you are still angry with me. and i know you said alot of times you just need time. but meanwhile what can i do? i really dont know. i used to thought i was approachable but after so many things had happened, i realised how i m everything i thought i wasnt. sorry tt i have stopped trying. but somehow i hope you can understand tt i still care and love you as someone i always knew, and i really hope you can understand me too you know.
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im sorry, i cant be perfect, i really cant.

all of you makes me think tt i failed, fail so badly. i hate being who i am.

bring me back.

*sorry doesnt mean anything.

yongling.

2006-07-14T02:02:00.000-07:00

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Are you sick of everyone around?

With their big fake smiles and stupid lies

While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels alright

You don't know what it's like

To be like me

You might think I'm happy

But I'm not gonna be ok

im sick. =(

i felt like everyone ard me is leaving! argh.

*i am everything i thought i wasnt.

sorry i cant be perfect.

nothing.

2006-07-12T06:23:00.000-07:00

im back from dinner! =))

i got like work to do=((

one EL-summary.

two set of maths paper.

one set of chemistry paper.

one worksheet for POA.

two SBQ qns for social studies.

one geog essay to complete.

man, i feel like crap. i know i know, 4more months! arghhh. it seems so long.. 4more months to freedom. endure alittle more. and then BYE sec life. such a challenge, mentally, physically, emotionally and of course more of them are spiritually.

and u must be thinking, so much work to be completed, then what are u doing online?! haha, man, give me a break. i think i really need to study like crazy, cause i wanna go overseas! =(( im not very stupid lah, just tt i need a little more discipline&effort. and plus a whole-heart=)

arghh, tired tired =(

yi bei zi. -stand by your side

oh and i love the feeling of being at home alone. i can do anything i want. scream, shout, cry, get angry, jump on mummy/kors' beds, play com whole day, watch vcd/tv shows, get turn the house upside down! and blasting loud music! and going crazy! not saying tt i cant do all these when im not alone at home, just tt i feel that im myself when im alone at home! but again, i rather a noisy home.

oh oh and prelims like 1monthplus away, ahhhhh! =(

my friends asked my abt life today! kinda lead to religious stuff. so ya! opportunity is here, i need to help them find book regarding our purposes in life, and where do we go after we die, is foetune-telling and stuff true? im so determined to go FInd it! =))

and i miss kor=(

i miss hanging out with pple.

i miss follow up.

i miss being friendly and nice to pple, even those tt are harder to love.

i miss SML cafe.

i miss working/helping at SML.

i miss WORLDCUP. *i really do =((

i miss England.

ha, and i missed you!

okays, guess i need to do work alrdy. hate it, arghh=(

im in a wake-up-early-tmr-again?! and sch?-whatever-lah kinda mood! :(

one of my fav song-everytime.

Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me

Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry
At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away

And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

-britney spears.

all the promises you have broken are all stored here<3>

-yongling-g

=))

2006-07-12T03:54:00.000-07:00

so much to blog about. haha, but mummy more important, going to meet her for dinner le! blog tonight=)

so much to say to all of you, but yet i dont know what to say. haha. =) eddie, daryl, benn, mervin, lucille, sarah, vera. im really amazed at how you pple become part of my life in such short period. i like the way we always make efforts to reach out and to pray and to be tog and just be there for one another. ha, have fun in school =)

blogging later! <33>

i never meant to..

yongling-

learning.=)

2006-07-11T04:43:00.000-07:00

hey just want to share something i read to you pple=) from the book "no wonder they call Him saviour" by max.Lucado. not the whole chapter but certain paragraph.

chapter 6. the cry of loneliness.
..i keep thinking of all the people who cast despairing eyes toward the dark heavens and cry "why?"
and i imagined him. i imagine him listening. i pictured his eyes misting and pierced hand brushing away a tear.and although he may offer no answer, although he may solve no dilema, although the question may freeze painfully in mid-air, he who also was once alone, understands.

chapter 7.I thrist
... He wants us to remember that he, too, was human. He wants us to know he,too, knew the drone of humdrum and the weariness that comes with long days. He wants us to remembered that our trailblazer didnt wear bulletproof vests or rubber gloves or an impenetrable suit or armor. No, he pioneered our salvation through the world that you and i face daily.
He is King of kings, the Lord of lords, abd the Word of life. More than ever he is the Morning star, the Horn of salvation, and the Prince of peace.

chapter 8. creative compassion.
...The Creator being sacrificed for the creation. God convincing man once and for all that forgiveness still follows failure.
i wondered if, while on the cross, the Creator allowed his thoughts to wander back to the beginning. One wonders if he allowed the myraid of faces and acts to parade in his memory. did he reminisce about the creation of the sky and sae? did he relive the conversations with Abrham and moses? Did he remembered the plagues and the promises, the wilderness and the wanderings? we dont know.

chapter 9- it is finished.
finish. stick to it until it is done.but unfortunately, very few of us do that.
Our human tendency is to quit too soon. Our human tendency is to stop before we cross the finish line. our inability to finish what we start is seen in the smallest things:
-A partly mowed lawn.
-A half-read book,
-letters begun but never completed.
-An abandoned diet.
-A car up on blocks.
or, it shows up in life's most painful areas:
-An abandoned child.
-A cold faith.
-A job hopper.
-A wrecked marrigae.
-An unevangelized world.

am i touching some painful sores? any chances i'm addressing someone who is considering giving up? If i am, i want to encourage you to remain.
Jesus didnt quit. but dont think for one minute that he wasnt tempted to. watch him wince as he hears his apostles backbite and quarrel. look at him weeps as he sits at Lazarus's tomb or hear him wail as he claws the ground of Gethsemane.
Did he ever want to quit? You bet.
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Are you close to quitting? Please dont do it. are you discouraged as a parent? hang in there. are you weary with doing good? do just a little more. ..
cant resist temptation? accept God's forgiveness and go one more round. is your day framed with sorrow and disappointment? are your tomorrows turning into nevers? is hope a forgotten word?

Let's endure.

above are some passages that really spoke to me. decided to blog and share with you all cause i hope it encourages you=) did you read it carefully? skip a sentence or two? please read it again. really. =)

im feeling rather weird. cause now that world cup fever is over, i kinda miss worldcup. the joy and excitement when your fav team scored a goal, all the disappointments when the fav team got to pack and leave germany, all the "goals", yeah! and alot=) i really miss it! and of course, i miss helping out in cafe and having real great fun with the staffs there. worldcup's over, im feeling rather empty. =(( and to me, like ltalty we all should have a good fighting spirit.

went airport ytd to send mdm koh and to fetch my kor back. talking abt airport and flight, im so reminded of my dream. i always wanted to travel around the world, to take a break and to explore the world. and again, i want to study overseas. to me, leaving singapore for further studies is something i always wanted to do which like i dont think even my closest friends know abt it=) been sending pple off at the airport these months, well, deep inside of me, somehow i really hope im the one being sent off, really. i know i will really miss ALL in Singapore but well, i guess i really need to learn to be more independent yet dependent on God, i need to grow up, isnt it? i really want to leave. =)

Olevels chinese today was pretty okays except for the reading part, man i did so badly, and yes i mean it. i had like alot of long pauses! :(( but well, its over le lah, so haha, bye! and ya, having Olevels chinese listening compre on mon.

amanda&caryn: im SO SO SO SORRY for not being able to meet u all up for so long, so super long. im sorry for letting u all wait annd really m sorry. i really hope the desire for follow-up is still there. im sorry, i miss you=)

vera: dont know you will read anot, but witch loves you alot. <333>

the desire for complete joy.

some things are better left unsaid.

yongling loves you, always.

i miss kor.

2006-07-09T04:32:00.000-07:00

just came back home from church.- had cg sharing, LTP201 and floorball. im hmmm in a ah-tmr-school-again kinda mood. =((
looking at the youth ministry camps photos few weeks back really reminds me of those youths we have lost touch with. the people who left, who backslided, who turn away. i can name so many, so so many. who ever really notice the absence of these people? poeple come and go, if we dont grab them, we lose them. i can name so many of them and its not all of them. zhi an, jessie, eileen, zhengying, gary, weiming, bingling, yanting, ben, the twins(i dont know their names) eric, nicholas, enping, roger, and more more. sometimes i really wish i had done more, to make them feel more welcomed, more love, more comfortable.
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i dont know y but i really dont like the feeling of pple always saying tt i will give others(guys) wrong idea. so what if newcomers are guys? means i cant approach and reach out to them? why? why everytime when i talk to some new pple, make friends and be sociable, pple will ask me to be careful or to not lead them wrongly. like hello, i know what im doing. and i really cant stand it when newcomers are just so alone and no one talks to them. ya? =) whatever, maybe its really my fault. maybe i shall really restrict myself and yah, let others will reach out to them right?! (i mean like NO, so wrong.) to lead is to serve ya? i felt so accused and so helpless. a part of me want reach out, the other part of me is restricted cos i dont want you all to talk abt me. and the way i do things. ...speechless.
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im quite sians abt school tmr. i mean no isnt, but yah. im trying to still be joyful abt it. and talking abt being joyful, cg we were talking abt having tt complete joy in us. the kind of joy tt is something deeper than laughing and being happy. like what jabez said, its a silence confidence knowing tt God is still in control and because of it, we smiled. altho things might nt be good at that moments, we are still having tt joy tt hope tt God is still here. well, ya like what sam said, it is something tt cant be explained, we have to experience it ourselves then we will know whether we have tt joy, tt faith.
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and yes, CG , i really know what each of you mean when u all share abt your struggles with God, having tt joy, tt faith to hold on in difficult times. i din shared much just now but yah, i really wanna say i understand, at least to some extent. during the period of seeking God thru daddy's death, i know i look okays and fine to many. ya, somehow i know God is working altho i so dont agree at tt point of time and when u walk out of it and look back, God is still in control, He is still on tt throne, right? not say im super joyful or smth, im still struggling now, in a way. to continue to live for him and to love my family no mater what it becomes. really am trying to keep tt joy. knowing tt Jesus will never leave me. just want to encourage you all tt, no matter what struggles you are going thru, God will bring you thru, cause he brought me through, even the most difficult times so far. bringing you through doesnt mean tt its over and tt's it. for me, i still have memories, of daddy and of every other things tt i had let go, but bringing me thru means, when i look back, i will not dwell on it and changed tt joy into bitterness. when i look back, i thank God for His perfect timing and my future.altho i still cry night after night, i know God is still on the throne and in time to come He will show me. to simplify, is having tt hope.
*
alot of times, we only managed to thank God and be amazed at His plan after we walk out of the struggles and look back. and we will nod your head in agreement with me, yes the Lord is still working in the midst of all=)
*
and i shall continue to be joyful abt school tmr. and i at least i think i will be. and i really thank God for the sports ministry. praying tt it will continue to grow and grow! same passion, same goal, one focus=)
*

He is a God tt understands, that sees our pain, our hurt, our every movement. a God that is never letting us go, a God tt nv gives up, a God tt is alive. and He is the God tt we are worshipping. turn to Him , cause only Him alone can be there for you ALWAYS. man fails us, remb God wont. and the* storms in your lives will not overwhelm you, God's love will. *

torn in between, but

im caught in Your grace.
yongling.

breathe again.

2006-07-08T07:57:00.000-07:00

breathe again-
Have you wondered how it feels when its all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start a new
Never knowing where youre going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now I just had to close my eyes and say
*
I just want to breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little
Live a little more
I just wanna face today
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little
Try a little more
I'll breathe again
*
Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of luck
Its a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Dont want to live on life replay
*
Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn

*

this is one of my fav song.hope it speaks of at least a part of how im feeling. (hmm maybe not, heh) i dont know what to blog abt but i know i love blogging, somehow to some extent. man i got like tons of work to finish and chapters to understand and catch up lah. and its sunday tmr=) floorball rocks lah.

im feeling so unreal all the times. i think im so in this process of finding my own self and knowing myself. i cant express my feelings and i felt like a fool sometimes. like what vera told me, " its simple, just be sad when u really are,cry if you need to, and be happy when you are happy!" somehow i do agree but another part of me cant do it.i felt tt i have been carrying this borrowed-joy with me for so long, tt i dont even know whose it belongs to anymore. where's yongling, the one everyone knows? i really want to have the real joy back, really.

want to do some dedications to those i been hanging out with recently. heh.:

amanda: i hope things are getting better, really. glad to see you still walking with God. hang in there, really, HE udnerstands.

benn: hey u have been such great friend and brother along this journey and really thanks alot, for? EVERYTHING =)

daryl: well, what to say? hmmm =) God's really your strength. seeing you struggling with so much and i really dont know how to encourages and comfort, im sorry. but i wanna say im still walking alongside with you. jiayou! God is so REAL=)

sarah: thankyou. really, for knowing well enough to know when im really not okays and when i really need to vent my emotions.thankyou for being with me through each struggles.

lucille: you have no idea how much i love you too. =) run on dear.

vera: i love witch too! its really wonderful knowing you so much better, personally. thankyou for the effort.

mervin: hey i really seen you grow, so so so much. jiayou brother.

eddie: hey! i wonder if you will be reading, but well anyways, im really glad to know you and studying with you is great altho you are alot smarter, i still enjoy your presence=)

and hey aggie, really thankyou so much too.

*goodbye to you. this time its really is goodbye.

yongling.

unsaid

2006-07-07T08:29:00.000-07:00

im feeling weird. but i dont know why. hmfpt. =(
-

so much to say, so much to explain, but well somethings are better left unsaid...

-the joy&pain of letting go =)-

yongling

MISS frankieKOR!

2006-07-05T06:48:00.000-07:00

i miss kor :( :(

kor's flying off tmr morning.

ah-!! i MISS KOR =(

=( =(=(=(=(=(=(

hurt. hit. so badly.

2006-07-04T06:55:00.000-07:00

mood swings- me?
NO.
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no you dont know what its like to be like me.
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it sure feel weird to sometimes blog abt happy stuff but sometimes not. yah weird.
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well i dont know how to explain how im feeling now. but perhaps the song, "welcome to my life" can reveal abit of how im feeling. somehow i think im just feeling tired. man, you must be thinking, tired?!?! you dont get tired. but yah, i think the word should be exhausted.
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family-
well, mummy and i have not been on good terms. rather hard to explain in details here. but yah, i just felt so selfish. i have been in my own little ignorance world. brothers are both in army and ya life's just so different. and with mummy ard me stressing tt life's different everyday, yes i know its different. and tt difference is daddy's nt ard. i miss the family feeling. i miss the times we argue over small matters, the times we just appreciate each other, the times we get angry with one another, the times we fight over computers and tv, fans, the times when we always go east coast park tog. i miss the watching soccer together. no, you dont know what its like. i been such a bad girl.
studies-
man, i been trying to study, but ya, im still feeling overwhelmed. no matter how, its still not enough. there's so much going thru my mind tt i cant focus and concentrate on alot of things. on the verge of breaking down. what if this, what if that. man, kill me.
caregroup-
its been great opportunity helping sam guide the cg when he's not ard. and i see alot of opp to lead and to step in to serve and yes i know God see willingess and tt's all He wants. i have been trying tooo. and i will keep going.
friends-
hey daryl, lucille, sarah, benn, vera, eddie, mervin. its really been nice knowing all of you some better some even better. after knwoing you all, my life's not the same! i feel tt i finally found my own group of friends and i sense tt im part of this group. and this feeling is indescrible. i simply just love every hangout and studytime with you guys, really.
me-
me ah? the same. im tired of always trying to be happy, trying to bring joy to people and they just dont see it. i feel like a fool. and i need pple to be there to listen, i dont just wan the right ans all the time. im sorry, im not perfect. im irritating and i was everything i thought i wasnt.

-

welcome to my life.
-to be hurt, to be lost, to be left out in the dark.

*daddy where are you. all i really want for Christmas is a family.*

yongling.

kill me

2006-06-29T05:58:00.000-07:00

oh man, im really going crazy lah, so stress abt not studying man. its so hard to discipline myself to focus lah. like lock myself in the house and with all my notes and books, i feel like im going to die soon. kill me.
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and bad bad bad news!!!!! my stupid dumb school are going to have lessons for us till 6plus 7. after school hours, remedial till 6. consultation till 7. im really so going to die, kill me. kill me!
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and tt crazy school, implement a new rule! girls have to pinned up our hairs if it touches our eyebrows and the side. arghh, dumb school with dumb rule. arghh! now i look like a super nerd. not everyone will pinned of course like alot in my class, but i still pinned them up lah. endure for 4more months and man, BYE to my school FOREVER lah. *ssscccreammmm* kill me.
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and and.. i need to have more more more discipline. to stay away from computers and tv shows. man, no life, so super no life. but well, like i said, 4 more months man, get it over and done with lah!
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and for now, before i leave blogger, i want to say ,man im so gonna miss all of these man. blogging, spending time w pple, seeing tags, being online, write cards, on the phone, going to CAFE! and lots lots lah. and i will so miss under construction, IDentified,stayovers. man, yongling is going to be stuyding hard, the sky falling! laugh it out pple.
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okays after so much for crapping and complaining, pls pple, pray for me ya? keep praying, tt i will really have the discipline to study and pray tt God will help me to focus and despite of studies, i will still be accountable to pple ard and tt i will not neglect pple ard me. thanks pple.(:
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and and hey! this sunday is youth day service!2July2006 calling all youths. :D pls come to WEFC(woodlands)
9am service starts.
we will have a great time worshipping:) and for those who dont know the LORD, come experience his unfailing love. xD
we will be having youths sports/games after the service! come come :D

-
dont just try, say you can do it and you can
yongling-

more to go.

2006-06-25T05:50:00.001-07:00

tmr is a new school term, im partly excited and partly scare. but i know there's no point talking abt it as everything will be fine tmr. ya? =) and my God's bigger.

past week-
well, i had lots fun having daryl, benn and sarah over to watch soccer the other day. brazil VS japan. hahaa, and tt's the 1st time i see sarah go crazy, "kaka! kaka! go kaka!" hahhaa. oops, better dont let her see this, heh. but anyway, thanks to benn, we had 7-eleven sandwiches and drinks. and well, we had sharing too! really love how we are comfortable sharing:) and benn shared with us how we should keep loving one another, keeping a lookout for one another and constantly leading others closer to Jesus. and guess what? we had MAC's breakfast at 4.30am and man, we went to sleep after tt, hahaa okays me and sarah. and benn left at 6plus and yah, so its one of the best day i ever had. :D
thru the holis, my life is all abt floorball man. hahha! really, almost everyday floorball and well, i know i have SO neglected my studies. and alot of times i forgot my focus, the reason i study and know with lucille knocking some sense in me, i guess i really need to put my heart and soul in it. and before i could do tt, praying tt i will survive tmr, i bet i will be so SCARE till i rather die immediately. in front of the whole school lah, oh man, kill me. :(
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alot of things have been happening thru the whole holiday. well, matters concerning myself, and matters with others. but again, i thank God for everything tt had happened, cos its His plan:) and to those i had hurt, in ways tt i do realised and even in ways i dont know:
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amanda:
hey dear, since the day u step into this church i really thank God for you. and im so sure tt God will bring you and lead you into something tt He wants you to do. im really sorry. but im really not sure what i have done, but i know when the time is right, you will tell me. im sorry.

beryl:
what to say? im just sorry.

caryn-
thankyou for letting me know you care abt this friendship and you really are willing to follow Christ. i really want build up this friendship=)

daryl-
im glad you made your choice and i will be praying for a joyful heart for both you and us. and ya! im glad God's working and ya, trust on:) there's so much to thank God for you. strive on, shine in schoool.

anyway, SCHOOL TMR :D rejoice ya? it applies to me tooooo.

-
oh pls be praying for the sports ministry. and captains of various sports, let me challenge you to be praying and trust tt God will show us the way.we must really have the same common goal in other to be examples for our members and to lead them to where God wants us to go. okays? keep tt challenge in your hearts and keep going. =) prayers must come before revivial. =)

by the grace of God i will carry on,
yongling:)

more to go.

2006-06-25T05:50:00.000-07:00

:D

2006-06-22T06:26:00.000-07:00

yeah! im so happy.

soccer at my place tonight! with benn, daryl and sarah:D:D and ya we going to have sharing! <333333>

hahaha alrights ending here, watching show now, and my ankle hurts like crazy!

arghh, kinda miss kor!

more more!

2006-06-21T07:34:00.000-07:00

MAN! FLOORBALL WAS GOOD TODAY. altho i still look sians and all. :) thanks daryl, tt was a great pass:D
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hmmm had dinner with sarah, lucille. caryn and amanda just now at PASTAmania:) a dinner tt i always wanted to had and of course the talk i want to have with them. im encouraged by how these girls strive to shine for Christ and how they never stop trying. and looking at their lives, i really thank God for calling them into His kingdom and showing them goodness all the times. i thank God for enabling me to related to them, the struggles tt they are going thru. i really can and well, God's amazing. the things they say and struggled with, are the same things i struggled with the past years. when we left pastamania, i felt a sense of fear, fear of what's lies ahead of us. new school term, new CG, new experiences, new pple ard me, new working styles with pple and new challenges. and suddenly, i felt tt satan is always on the move, to shake us.be alert ya?:)
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i have been really different. the way im in school and the way im in church. and i hate to be like that. i want to be the same yongling wherever i m. and i know recently my temper had been really bad and my attitude sucks. i feel like i had lost so much joy, really nature joy. without me having to smile and pretend. oh man, i really miss being yongling. :( and yes im very prideful. i really hope to be more teachable sometimes.
--
wanting to type so much and say so much but i really dont know how to say. maybe frankie's right. i had stopped sharing much abt feelings and myself after daddy left.

*nothing but memories.

yongling.

God's faithfulness never fails.

2006-06-20T07:41:00.000-07:00

like how i agree with daryl, it has really been LONG since i blogged. =) holidays are coming to an end very soon and somehow looking bac kat how i spent the holidays, i have been playing all the way. floorball after floorball=) im so undisciplined.

well lets talk about today. today i had dinner with lucille, sarah and sam. yacht club's nice:) and well, the food is nice too! and the most important thing is that the talking and discussion over CG matters got me thinking and help me set my mind on what God really wants me to do.i know that i have always wanted to be a CG leader to lead God's pple spiritually and i know i wanted to be part and involved in missions. and my heart goes out to those in other countries whom haven know Christ and you know, i really wanna see revivial! esp in east timor.i sense tt is somewhere God wants me to serve in. but for now, i guess i need to focus more on spiritual growth and helping pple to grow which leads me to CG :)

under construction-

its been joy seeing our cg becoming so close thru the years and splitting is definately going to be so trying for alot of us. i was so doubting my own ability and calling to serve as a leader in the very near future, but after dinner and talk just now, i felt so refreshed again to go out to fight. to continue to stand for Christ and yes indeed, all God needs from us is willingness, that willingness to serve, to learn, to trust and of course to obey. and again thru it all, God will be there to hold us. in this new CG, somehow i know i got alot more responsibility but i also know tt im so not alone, im feeling rather excited about this new challenge ahead but in this excitement, there's this little bit of fear. fear of rejection, fear of not doing good enough, fear of not being able to gain respect. and now learning to work with pple, pple with same passion but different viewpoint.

sports ministy-

so much have been going on and i guess alot of us, our passion had decreased alot. but again, i thanked God for calling me to serve in this aspect and in this moulding me, helping me to see things from his viewpoint and being patient with pple and even myself. there's so much discouragement at times and when things are really not going smoothly, i see God's hands reaching out to me, and then i will realised tt all i really need is to stop trying in my strength and reach to Him. easier said than done?, i know:) but well, God have been so real in my life and i can definately testify to His goodness. i know i said it alot of times before =, but im gonig to say again, im still trusting God for tt harvest in sports ministry and i know God will work in His ways. even when im feeling so alone running this whole thing, i know maybe alot of others felt the same way too. im glad tt God has gone before me and He really understands.

me-

past few days have been very trying for me. to really in a sense surrender to Christ's strength and love. im actually quite prideful and in a way im quite spoilt. i want things my way most of the time. and being a Christian few years back, i learned to trust in God way. but slowly down the journey, i started to leave God outta of the pic. and i come to realise how small im standing alone without God recently. and how i really cant do much myself.and sometimes i will ask myself, " cant i do it my way?", " i wanna live my life my way". but again, i thank God tt He is God and He sees everything,the past, present, future. and being God He knows what's the best for me:) ytd was the day man. first time, sarah saw me cry so hard. i seldom cry so hard, i know im sad but everytime i cry after service, i tell myself i must be okays cause there's still Cg later. and everytime mummy talks about daddy, i wont cry i will hold back my tears cause i know if i cry, mummy will cry very badly too. and thru the whole funeral i look fine and ya i din cry so hard at all, at most drop few drops of tears. i know i cant take it anymore and there's alot of things happening in my life.i know im not the only one so ya, cheer up:) i once heard from one of my closest sister, lucille, tt "yongling you are strong not because you dont cry but because you cried." im always so encouraged by these words. seriously, i dont understand y, y me, y my daddy and yes, there's alot of y. but somehow thru all these questions, there lie a purpose, part of God good plan for my life. i have always thought tt last year was a year that was so hard to go thru, esp when funeral was 2 weeks before Nlevels. and finally when everything was over and its a brand new year! but again, i felt that this year is another year of struggling, struggling to surrender to God. a challenge towards me physically, spiritually, emotionally and mentally. past few days i really almost give up. i felt so, i-m-such-loser kinda feeling.i cant find that joy in me anymore. all i see is sadness and meaningless. but again, i thanked God for the affirmation from alot of things/pple. i just miss daddy. i miss watching soccer matches with him, miss gonig east coast and changi airport with him. =)

daryl-

hey! i know you will be reading. so ya, here's something for you. i wanted to write a card but oh well, my handwritting is really bad. heh. i just wanna say, my life have been diff since you came to WEFC. i seldom see guys having so much passion for Christ. you can say tt its our lives tt spour you on, but i want to say also tt, you have encourages me so much. to continue to hold on and to trust on even when i dont see God working. thankyou for being so willing to share and to love the pple ard you. you are not alone, trust me, we are running with you. and at this point of your life when you are making decision to stay/ leave, i will be praying tt God will be with you and tt He will give you wisdom. keep going ya? i see your passion for the lost and i know God have a great purpose in store for you and when you feel tt nothing happening and tihngs doesnt go your way, God is still working, in His perfect ways:) stay joyful k? i thanked God for a brother like you. RUN ON:D

*all i could ever ask for.is YOU

yongling.

2006-06-16T08:27:00.000-07:00

worldcup fever! i know this entry about worldcup comes abit too late, but oh well. :D

i like ARGENTINA!- they are damm GOOD. :D

but...

if you know me..

i really LOVE ENGLAND! :D:D -but i know they may not win.

i think argentina have a higher chance. but i love both:D:D

more to come:)

2006-06-14T20:19:00.000-07:00

wow, it feel like years since i blogged! :) and it feels so good knowing that pple are reading your blog and tagging! and saying, your blog's so dead! well, cause it proves that they are reading and checking on your blog. so encouraging:)

the holidays are so coming to an end:( a part of me is feeling good but the other part, i guess im going to dread school again. everytime when i think about the things tt i need to do in school, it overwhelmed me! apart from studies(which is REALLY a torture for me), there's so many pple i want to reach out too. and being the only christian(in class and level) i always felt like im doing it alone and the feeling somehow pulls me down:( having to stand alone in what im believing in and trying so hard to reflects God's unfailing love. sometimes i just feel like i have failed so badly, esp when my exams results doesnt glorify God, my school attendance(during holis too) doesnt glorify God and my attitude in school doesnt show God's love. but somehow thru all these, i feel tt and i know tt, God's working in His own ways, tt i cant see and cant understand. somehow i know He wants me to use His strength and not working on things by my own strength. and with my focus from the very beginning, to bring my classmates to Christ by the end of my sec school, i think i failed quite badly too. they came, they saw God's love and they all left. its been something im trying to really let go and let God. its easier said than done:)

CG's splitting! im so looking forward but somehow there's still abit of sadness. hahaa, im looking forward also to after the split, how each and everyone will grow:) i know God is using me in little ways, and im so glad tt my life does impact others. and looking back, i really thank God for all the struggles and trials tt i had gone thru. moving on after the trials makes me a stronger person, and being able to encourage others with my own encounter with God. God is God, He works in ways we cant see. but its the perfect way:D

and hey DARYL! if you are reading:) im so encouraged by you, really. your willingness to serve and your passion to seek the lost for God. and you have really been a very encouraging brother-in-Christ, not only to me but to many others:) thanks for everything ya?im so thankful tt sarah invited you to WEFC and God brought you here! we are all winners remb? cos we have God in our hearts. :) SHINE ON!

to all under construction members! take note! :
LAST CG OUTING TO SENTOSA. THIS SATURADAY, 17TH OF JUNE.MEET AT HARBOURFRONT MRT AT 11AM. WE WILL GO FOR LUNCH TOGETHER 1ST. HIGHLIGHTS: THERE WILL BE SHARING AND WORSHIP AT THE BEACH :D

and oh well, i kinda miss being yongling. heh.
and hey, i miss IDENTIFIED.

*how can one be so sucessful in one thing and failing so badly in another.?
yonglinggg.

missing.

2006-06-06T19:12:00.000-07:00

ahhh! im missing alot of things again :(
i miss under construction
SAWA team
my brothers!
daddy!
my family lah
i miss all the things we had done tog as a family!
i miss my panasonic VS3
i miss captain's ball
i miss catching up with pple
i miss eating unhealthy stuff
i miss i miss alot alot of things
and most of all, i miss being myself.

-

thru these few weeks, i realised and experience how hard&seldom i turn to God first before men. its easier said than done. however, i cant deny tt God is forever faithful. even at times when i didnt go to Him in prayers first, He knows my heart.God acts before i do=) i really thank God for blessing me with SO much that i often lost count and sometimes even takes things for granted. but i really thank God for placing so many pple in my life tt care and love me. if there's something i really wish i have, it would be passion for His pple, be it believers or not. alot of the pple ard me would say tt i alrdy had this passion but i dont think so cause i think i dont love God's pple enough to care for them. i hate to be prideful, and sometimes i wish im not so self-centered. blessed to be a blessings ya? i should start to be a blessings too...

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my journey has been abit unsteady recently, but again, God is in control. every single thing ard me just reminds me of my dad. i went to visit my daddy ytd. i just sat there and just look at his photo. in my room when i look ard me, i saw the things tt reminds me of daddy. east coast park and changi airport reminds me of daddy too. we used to go there quite often. even on the road, all the cars reminds me of daddy. he used to drive me ard, to school and everywhere. :( even at home, i miss his presence. GOD, i miss daddy.

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absence makes the hear grows fonder.

yongling.

blah blah.

2006-06-05T08:37:00.000-07:00

this few days is the times i feel so close to my thermometer, :D having fever tt range from 37.5-39.2 . but if you been gg out eith me these days, you can see tt im still alive and i look perfectly fine and normal =) not dying yet.

went to send rays and pple at the airport today. it was quite a happy, sad and exciting scene. heh. felt so excited for tem:D and ya, gonna miss them for 7days, arghh! :( :( but im looking forward for breakthrus for them!

miss school today, had fever. but no exucse cause i went out too. gg to miss school tmr too, gg to visit daddy in the morning so ya. :) and wed, my brother army passing out parade! ya, anyways im having school this whole week lah. oh man, i need more discipline.

and ya, after sending sawa team off, went DG. for dont know what reason, so decided to watch movie with sarah. SHE'S THE MAN. hahaa, its so funny! :) yah, and after that, yaya...... and so on...

favour from men and God. im learning to seek GOD's approval.

no struggles, no progess,
yongling*

singaporean

2006-06-02T07:31:00.000-07:00

sent my brother off to tekong today. spend almost the whole day there lah=) touring around the place. i know alot of you wont agree with this sentence but i still gonna say! tekong is such a nice place, great breeze and lovely scenery.<33>

as i walk into pulau tekong, looking at all the banner and listening to the song tt was played, i suddenly felt so proud being a Singaporean. having 2brothers tt is defending the country! and hahaa, i pass by jie and andrew comapny:) WHEE! :DD as i part with my brother, oh man, i really can feel IT lah. so sad, i miss my brother altho i know he will be good and well in there. but.. i miss my brother:( :(

oh and i made new specs alrdy! lovesloves:D and kor's coming back from batam tmr! :D :D.and im going to watch over the hedge tmr! of course with my movie partner and some others lah!

praying for family! praying that God will be my discipline, in times like now, that i will study hard and be home early and be home most of the times to takecare of mummy.

i need to force myself to grow up.

grow up..

yongling;

one in a million

2006-06-01T07:56:00.001-07:00

:DD i changed blogskin again, heh.

LIKE A STAR :DDDD

im like so super tired now lah, cant think properly, heh. i going to sleep soon! arghh, the sake sushi still swimming in my stomach. i wanna sleep! digest faster lerr.xD

my brother's going army tmr! AHHH :( :( :( miss miss<33 lovesloves="))">

and ya, my throat super pain lah, i cant stop coughing, its itching! =( AHHHHHH! AND IM SO SO DAMM FULL :(

you are one in a million.

yongling<3

one in a million

2006-06-01T07:56:00.000-07:00

:DD i changed blogskin again, heh.

LIKE A STAR :DDDD

im like so super tired now lah, cant think properly, heh. i going to sleep soon! arghh, the sake sushi still swimming in my stomach. i wanna sleep! digest faster lerr.xD

my brother's going army tmr! AHHH :( :( :( miss miss<33 lovesloves="))">

and ya, my throat super pain lah, i cant stop coughing, its itching! =( AHHHHHH! AND IM SO SO DAMM FULL :(

you are one in a million.

yongling<3

2006-05-29T20:04:00.000-07:00

there's so many things tt i wanna thank God for. i want to remember his faithfulness and love! =))

thanksgivings:
last week:
sat:
unify was great! something tt i really want to thank God for. i see God working thru our prayers and His presence so real.
and ya, sarah, lucille and me managed to share the gospel with an old uncle on the bus back to woodlands from unify. and i really thank God tt he lives in woodlands too, and tt he hears abt God, i know God's working=)

sunday:
sharon came to church! and i really thank God for bringing her back to himself! sarah brought her friends too! and yes praise God, one of her friends accepted Jesus. =) praise God. and im so glad and encouraged seeing pple coming to God and seeing how God works in diff lives. :D oh and i thank God for giving me life 17 years back, and for bringing me to himself 4yrs back=) i also want to thank God for all the blessings He placed in my life, all the brothers and sisters- in- christ, and tt includes you=) ya, and i thank God for frankie! =D and i thank God for granting us journey mercy back home tt night.=)

this week:
monday- thank God tt i managed to wake up on time! and tt i managed to reach school by 7.35am when i leave home at 7.15am. and i thank God for abel and lucille runnning this race with me. and i thank God for gary who are always there to pray with me in school=) i also wanna thank God for something tt is so incredulous:D my spoilt watch work on monday during my paper! really thank God, and ya prayers always work. =) i was sitting right in front and in tt position is quite impossible to see the clock. and ya, really praise God for tt work man=) in His time, everything is perfect<333.>
i also wanna thank God for being able to meet up w sam, being able to talk to sul, and being able to catch up w josh kor and farand=)) and ya, i thank God for the same passion, love and communication tt me, lucille, sarah shares. =))

so many times He showed me the way and He proved His faithfulness. :D i called and He answered. prayers must come before things happens. pray, pray for growth in our youth minstry, pray for God truth to be reveal to so many others. pray for captain's ball, pray for God's hands upon our friends.

believe in the power of prayer.

and you came to my rescue,

yongling:))

2006-05-26T19:52:00.000-07:00

blogging definately add colours to my life=)) and reading others' blog are such always inspiring for me too. im encouraged to walk on and persevere in times when i just feel like giving up. and ya, i love blogging<33

yah, chinese Olevels is like one day after my birthday. and seriously, i dont know how to study for it. and frankly, im so not prepared. everyone's ard me are like studying and preparing so hard for it, and looking at me, i felt crappy, cos i really dont know what i can really do. sigh, what a wishful thinking of wanting a A2. but well, i cant deny the power of God and He knows my results even before i sat for the papers. but ya, sometimes its hard to acknowledge the fact and hold on to tt promise tt God really knows and He holds the results in His hand=))

and ya, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUNQUAN! =D i know its ytd lah, but i din blog ytd mah. oh and let me help him promote his blog: http://kunquan-.blogspot.com

ya, going church later for captain's ball. yeah! we'll keep going! and yes im still trusting God for a harvest in sports minstry, and hey pple, i need for workers! =)) join us kaes? really, be praying and trusting with me kaes? it hasnt been easy, and it can be quite discouraging at times when no one wants to response. reaching the lost is somthing that WE strive for together.! <33>

*because You persevere.
yongling;

2006-05-24T20:26:00.000-07:00

how majestic.=)

2006-05-24T03:52:00.000-07:00

i been sick. oh crap! like i didnt go to school ytd and today, wontbe going tmr also. got MC for today and tmr. dont know how to describe, its just the feeling of sickness, the feeling of just sleeping! even standing up makes you feel giddy. had tt kinda of feeling before, well i had it all the time! darn. =))

i wondered how much things i had missed out during these 3days of absence in school, heh. i know it sounds pretty ironic, but i kinda miss school out of the blue=)) i miss the tiredness i always felt waking up from bed early and walking out of school gate late. oh and there's one thing i wouldnt miss! the canteen food! *laughs* but well, these missing wont last cause i will be back in school on fri. =)) and maybe i will start talking about how i miss sleeping in my mum's aircon room everytime when im sick and blogging a this hour,heh.

oh LUCILLE's coming over! nah, not stayover, just dinner. my mummy's cooking some porridge, its her lucky day! =DD she's on the way now, at the station. and its pretty cool when your friends know where your place is, like now, lucille will walk over herself, i dont need to pick her up from station anymore! =)) heh.

and im feeling hungry, hungry.

...

oh and mervin will be back tmr from genting.

*rare moments, i miss school!=)) *
-yongling;

2006-05-23T00:11:00.000-07:00

man fails us, but God wont.

im learning to let go and to trust God in this trying period. its nt easy, i know. but im going to learning and to surrender to Him. and yes truly i want to acknowledge tt He is king and He wont fail me.

i thank God for all the strugglings and learning. like what sul said, its not about the result, its the process and the learnings.*thahnks dear* somehow somewhat, i felt tt alot of things/ppl i always thought i used to be quite close with or i thought will go the way i expected , are just not true=) sometimes my expectations just takeover.

alrights.

so now, im going to learn and to let go, im nt gg to let these things/ppl affect my life so much anymore.it may be a good thing or a bad thing but well, i know i still have a God tt i need to fix my eyes on and not THESE things.

i had enough, i'll walk on and you shall see a different yongling.

2006-05-17T02:22:00.000-07:00

i simply miss it, mine's black.

school was pretty tiring today. had morning run in the morning(okays, like duh) keep going through exams papers. i failed like almost everything. okays, shouldnt talk about it.=(

happy birthday CH'NG YI! <33>

oh and i missed SUKI SUSHI with you guys lah, end school late, sorrys.=) was listing all the chapters tt i had to studied for Olevels for each sub. it was WOW. =/ whatever. i need to go shopping! need to get presents lah, hate to shop for presents, too many choices lah. ^^ oh and crap, my brother kelvin is going to army damm soon lah. 3ofJUNE. arghh, so gonna miss him. <3>

and i went IKEA with lucille&sarah ytd.=) its such a joy having to hang out with them. cant believe they went there just for the meatballs, i know its nice, BUT its beef=) wanted to walk ard ikea though, but we talked till quite late. hahaa, so ya, we went there just for wings&meatballs! i reached home at abt 11plus? =) thank God mummy never slaughter me lah.xD

alrights, im so going to plan my revision timetable now. if nt im so going to be dead.

*who am i? tt the eyes tt see my sins will look upon me with love?*

yongling;

things to do?

2006-05-15T02:06:00.000-07:00

today was hmmm crap. =) no, pls dont ask abt my results, cos they are really bad. end school at about 4. i wanna sleeeep!=DD

things to be done this week:

*quiet time

*study tonight

*study even harder, heh.

*praying for family's salvation

*pray for ppl in jap mission trip

*pray for kor in BALI

*write encouragement cards

*meeting with captain's ball mates

*follow up with amanda and caryn-tues?

*identified meet ups-thurs?

*dinner at home-mon,tues, wed, fri?

*shop for ch'ng yi, blur&natty's presents.

*plan revision schedule.

*help KQ do up a blog=)

*sports on sunday?

there's all i need to do i GUESS.=)) great, i simply love my schedule, minus the studying part=)

how wonderful it is to be alive! =D thank God for this life xD

take me to your heart,

yongling;

GOD IS SO GOOD.

2006-05-14T04:05:00.000-07:00

=) today sermon was good.

choose to forgive.

releasing forgiveness.

allow healing.

forgivness is a internal process.

p.shern, frankie&sam left for BALI today. for one week ler! really gonna miss them. arghh, cant imagine nt having them ard for one week =( . but im glad they had the chance to go for retreat and be recharged and refreshed by JESUS! =D be praying for them kaes? coool, frankie just called me! they just reached SAFELY=)) thanks GOD. yeah! =))

CG was fun today, altho most of the time i dont know what they are talking abt, cos i din come last week. love the sharing part, love all their crappy comments. heh.

hmmm i felt that our Youth ministry had changed alot. =( not as enthu as last time, not sporting anymore. just plain dull and everyone just acting and looking so bored and sians. =( but ha!, keep praying, cos prayers work.=D looking forward to breakthru! <3>

im excited about the week to come, are you? im looking forward to seeing and experiencing what God has in store for me this coming week! life without my kors will surely be so diff, but heh, its only one week and after this one week, few more weeks. hahaa, they are gg to be out of town again.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY! <33

YONGLING=D

2006-05-12T19:32:00.000-07:00

loved and saved<33

hahaa, i suddenly miss identified=) all the meet ups, stayovers, movies, expensiveFOOD, =D , and of course the times we pray! laugh and cry. identified have sort of become a mini cg session for me! <33 beryl! ilove you, joanne! i love you, lucille!, i love you, sarah! i love you, vera!and i love yongling! =D

oh and exams are over! yippeeee~! at least for now, i can rest and relaxed! and i got a bad sore throat.=(( went to watch poseidon ytd with frankie and kunquan.=) duration its only 1hr plus lah. hahaa. went to church for floorball and dinner at taste of thailand! =D coool~ oLORD, thankyou for blessing me! im SO SO blessed beyond measure.<3

tmr is sunday! =D another time to be refresh i hope.=) and im going to wear my new pink-brown fabalous shirt! <33

i want to be a JESUSfreak.

im startified!-yongling;

2006-05-09T04:15:00.000-07:00

=) had my last mid year paper today.

didnt have the excitment of a last paper, maybe cos there's still prelims and Olevels, or maybe just becos i never put in effort to do well...

tmr i will really be free lah, for now lah.

i wanna go.. away.

*i need to breathe.

-yongling.

2006-05-08T04:30:00.000-07:00

under construction <333

you all are the blessings from God that i could ever ask for. =)

CG splitting soon,by June! all along, i supported splitting and wanted splitting. not becos i dont like my Cg, i love them! but becos i know splitting will do us all good and we will cont to grow even deeper in Christ.=)

but come to think of it now, it does hurt quite slot to split. thru these years, we bad bond so much

closer than last time. we were once so quiet when leaders are not ard, we dont talk to each other, they each had own small clicks, cg outing was so sians, sharing was on surface, we just dont talk. now? hahaa, big change man. our cg always end late and we love CG time! all the sharing of the week, the deep sharings and we really talk and talk quite ALOT =)

i will miss all of these: the times we shared, the outings we had, the time we stated our expectations, the times we got frustrated&disppointed w each other, the times when we only had emily as our leader, the times when we missed sam, the open sundays tt we planned,the times we had BBq in church and outings at town which i missed!, the christmas tt we spent tog, the newyears tt we are ready for, the challenges we went thru tog, the joy we shared, the times when we study tog, the times when we struggled tog with God as a CG and as individually, the tears we shed, the deep sharings during watchnight, the prayers we prayed, the nonsense things we do, the care&love shown in every little ways, all the gifts, the times when one

feel left out and alot alot more=) i really appreciate all of you. <33>

even as we split, cont to grow in Christ ya? cos tt's

our purpose and let us glorified God tog. stay strong

under construction.=D

united as one,

yongling<3>

2006-05-08T04:04:00.000-07:00

under construction; that cross.

hahahaa.piece of crap! =/ went home after my paperS today. yah, met caleb for lunch. and went home. and crap, i slept till six=) from 3plus lah. crap ler, den also not stuyding. tmr last paper, but i dont have a feeling tt its last argh! =( anyway, today was a good day of sleeping.

oh, but the back of my shoulder hurts like mad, must be all the heavy bags. really painful, crap=(

Cg gg to split soon, by june. all the while, i supported spiltting!cos i know we will grow even deeper in Christ and splitting will do us alot of good.=) but now come to think of it, it does hurt quite alot. we have been tog for abt 2 yrs plus, and most of them are with me since i 1st came into WEFC. but i believe everything will go fine ya? =) under construction have been part of my life! being with them is super fun lah, and indeed we have bond so much though these years. the deep sharing, the expectations we have, the food we shared, the nonsense thing we do, the open sunday we organised, the studying time tog, the most paiseh dance we had ever done and the times we struggled to grow as a cg and individually. the tears and joy i will never forget. =) even though we split, we will still be tog kaes? =D how can underconstruction be split? under one side, construction one side? we will find extra strength in God to carry on=)

shine and grow ya? <33>

yonglingg!

=D

2006-05-07T06:18:00.000-07:00

being that star for You.

=) good news:

God brought me thru the last week, although ALL the papers was crap, but ya, its all in His hands.

open sunday today was great! my group won the champion! and my elder brother came to play basketball with sam and the few others. we had dinner tog too! =D with frankie, farand, and few others. i really see God working, you know? He's working! in small and little ways of His own. and i really thank God that frankie is alrights=) <33

oh and i meeting frankie soon! =D

not-so good:

i have about 5papers left.

tmr got 3papers and i havent study a single one. and crap, i dont really care.LOL. i got oral on wed! arghh=( =( and tt teacher is the worst person i can ever met on earth man. guess he really got bad impression of me, and likewise i dont like him. and not only me, the whole school not many like him too. ah, crap. if you think frankie is D, he is thousand times worst. not saying tt being a D is bad, cos frankie is perfectly good, just tt the teacher attitude is nonsense lah. but oh well, i must learn to not judge lah. =)

be praying tt everything will go God's way k? =)

oh and eric, if you are reading, just wanna say your blog is really encouraging, really=) jiayou in nj! and blog on, God is good, all the times! =D

and hey CG, we will have a outing real soon can? alrights man, silence mean consent=) anyway, girls, SHOPPING SPREE after MYE! few days more, endure ya? <33

-You are so mu8ch stronger than i thought,

yongling.

LOVES

2006-05-04T20:37:00.000-07:00

mummy brought me the converse shoe! <33>

you cant imagine how happy i was man. went for dinner with mummy with my brother ytd. i saw lucille and sarah!! =Doh and mummy and i brought 3quarter pants too. <3

and of course we went to cold storage. i simply love

super market. cos got lots of food. =) i brought breakfast ceral! and yogurts! oh and i brought my social studies guide book too=) [finally].

i really thank God tt im ever so blessed beyond measure.<33

i really appreciate everything HE has placed in my life.

my friends, my school, kors, my trials, tests, challenges. every single thing. wow, =)

you give & take away.

Jesus, my Lord my Life.

<33

yongling.

2006-05-03T06:01:00.000-07:00

im tt smallfreak=))

today chinese paper was BAD. =(( so crap lah, so hard. tmr is geog&maths papers. haven study =(( really scare, damm scare. crap, got study, but cant really get into my mind! *arghh* mental block. whatever. bleahs=(

went over to ray's place to study. and my brother went over too at the evening to learn guitar from sam&chanwah. so coool. wow, uncle chanwah such a expert=)) WOW. =DD

and yah, i think im suppose to do some studying later which i think wont be productive! CRAP. =(( =(( okays lah, geog maybe still can pass, but maths, i realy doubt so! F9! =( terribly crap.

anyway, i so nt in the mood of studying, okay partly because im damm lazy, partly, i just dont feel like it. and i so want to PUKE now lah, hey someone of you may know why. hahaa. like rays ahs, i think u feel like puking too. hahahaaa!

alrights, small freak off to freakyland.[ oh crap, y m i typing this kind of thing! crap!oh whatever. today's so wrong.

still puking

yongling.

2006-05-02T05:40:00.000-07:00

fellow warriors 2005

2006-04-30T17:18:00.000-07:00

..
and with my brother friends sleeping in my living room, you guessed it, i din have a good night sleep. they were so noisy lah.*arghh* now they are sleeping so soundly and i cant sleep! they are like living in America lah, our morning is their night, and our night, their morning, so nonsense. okays nvm..

hmmm its quite weird waking up early in the morning thinking of how to write my testimony. =)

...

i wrote a whole lot of words. but then, i decided not to post. my testimony are too long i guess, and my command of english is not very good.
and i thought it will be quite boring for readers=) and maybe, it shall be a surprise on my baptism day.=)

now that you're near.

I stand before You, Lord
And give You all my praise
Your love is all I need
Jesus, You're all I need

My life belongs to You
You gave Your life for me
Your grace is all I need
Jesus, You're all I need

Hold me in Your arms
Never let me go
I wanna spend eternity with You

And now that You're near
Everything is different
Everything's so different, Lord
And I know I'm not the same
My life You've changed
And I wanna be with You
I wanna be with You

And I will sing for You always
'Cause in Your presence God is where I wanna stay

-yongling.

your ways.

2006-04-29T06:45:00.000-07:00

sometimes in life, this is what we face.

struggling with our decisions, directions and plans. we got nothing, not a sign, God seems silence, the road seems aimless, you start to wonder is God there, do He really understands?

we find our own directions, we seek and seek, we continue with our own little decisions and live our own ways..but all we found is nothing.

but a closed-road, tt leads us to no where. in the end, we still have make a U-turn to where we started, tt road with no sign.

one-way, everyone says tt Jesus is the only way. and His ways are higher, so many just continue to have tt head-knowledge and went seeking for tt one way, without believing and letting God work.

and there you look ard, you saw "one way"s but which is the correct one? have u ever come across something like tt? seeking for tt one way in your life, but found so many of them. which is the correct one? what is God doing, you asked.

is it the left way? right way? ahead or behind, or God,is it just wait? or stop? or walk? run? dash? breathe? up? or down? "one way?" which way?

and there in my struggles, somehow, i saw this sign, God's way. the hardest way for me i guess. all the struggles and trials never stop coming my way, bu thru all these, somehow, i still saw this sign, this God's way, nt the confusing wayS anymore.

i admit, i struggled with God sometimes to walk thru His way, i got off track sometimes too. i tried to make some U-turns sometimes, but i realised, once i start this journey, i'll never wanna stop. never.

i'll follow all of ur ways.

-yonglingg

journey to heaven

2006-04-27T22:44:00.000-07:00

its been a long journey.

until the stars fall.

Well, I know we see
The same blue sky
But there¹s a different shade of blue
Between you and I
And I want to say
What¹s on my heart
But you might not see the light
Until you know the dark (Til you go thru the dark)
It may be miles away
It could break thru today
Are you gonna wait till the stars fall
from the sky?
To call on heaven
What¹s it gonna take to make you realize?
The life we¹re given here is not the end
Believe and it begins
Are you gonna wait til the stars fall
from the sky?
I pray somewhere
There will come a time
Hope and doubt will crowd you
Closer to the line
And the truth will dawn
Like the light of day
And in that moment you will
Take a leap of faith
It may be miles away
Or today could be the day
Everything we see reveals
The one who made it so (Look around you)
And even God himself came down to show
The lengths that love will go...Chorus
Are you gonna wait til the stars fall from the sky?
Will it take the dark to make you see the light?
Are you gonna wait til the stars fall from the sky?

worthy

2006-04-26T02:55:00.000-07:00

there is no school tmr for ADSSians=)

was studying at woodlands library ytd. sitting at the cafe there, i realised how much i miss studying there. remb last year, me and gary& some others used to study there. nice environment. and i really love the cookies&cream milkshake there!<33> soon. next week, mid year exams2006.one of the exams thru my sec life tt im really stress about. after mid year exams, prelims and oral will come one after another. can i make it? dumbo*

this sunday is daddy's birthday. what can i do? anyway, i wont be in church. guess i din plan to go anyway. cant imagine what i can do when i see mummy crying.

...

i dont wanna say anything, dumbo*

memories so deep, so fresh in the mind

undeserving, -your.precious

2006-04-24T04:41:00.000-07:00

=) hows your day?

had a long day today. had chem prac. and as usual, i alwyas screwed things up. its so crap lah, i really dont know how to do. okays, whatever, tt's nt the point.

encouragements! =) i got a big pack of marshmallows from baoling today! something small like this really brighten my day=) *munch*

went to eat with raymund at the coffeeshop near our blocks, started eating at abt 5plus, wanted to go home in time for my 5.30pm show, but yes, it started raining heaVILY!and yah, thank God there's a tv set there. so we stayed there to finish the one hour show. and yah, after one hour, the rain kinda stopped so we went home. it was damm cold at the coffeshop lah, the wind is blowing so strongly plus all the high speed fans. wohoo.~ greezing lah. [okays at least for me.]

crap lah, something's weird. its the feeling of having a bug ard you. *stop bugging* what's tt something? hmfpt.

bummer.

bugging, bugging, bugging, oh bugger.
-yongling;

howgreat.

2006-04-21T03:55:00.000-07:00

when clouds of darkness overwhips my soul
when the strength of my heart fades away
when my friends have left me
all the hopes seem far away
when the word of comfort refuse to stay

there's is a song in the night
there's a light in the dark
there's a gentle voice tt smoothes my heart.

for i know tt my redeemer lives
and His love for me will never end
my heart, my flesh may fade away
yet with my eyes will see my God.

in the quiet corner
in the still of night
your tender presence lifts me high
my sweet companion
my strength and guide
my soul deep anchor in you
i abide

i live my life to give you praise
everyday every breathe every beat of my heart
this life is captured by your grace to worship who you are
who you are

song of job.

its a really nice song. it reminds me about His unfailing love. despite all tt the author went through, he still proclaims His goodness.How amazing, how wonderful is His love.

How wide is your great love

tt You would come and die for me

the Lamb that's been given

So i may come received

Your grace it overflows

Your mercy fills me in my soul

Such a wonderful saviour

who knows me like my own

what a privilege for me to come depend

On a God who calls me by my name, my friend

Above all else

i want to live you like You do

Lord i will worship like i should

i will give my all to You

Above all else

i want to live my life each day

pleasing in every single way

Jesus I will offer up my all to You. ,

above all else.

there's times when i would fall

when i cant seem to hear you call

but i know that You're there Lord

You'll never let me go

You'll always stand by me

For who i am and used to be

Don't deserve any of this

the things you freely give.

=) these two songs, such an encouragement to me. And the grave became a place of hope, for the heart that sin and sorrow broke is beating once again.

these few weeks have been a busy and tiring weeks for me.to once again rely on His strength, not mine. tests after tests, exams after exams. i'm simply amazes by His grace.

the love tt never end.

nothing compares;

yongling*

2006-04-19T06:09:00.000-07:00

have a break, have a kit-kat;

i want a big easter choc egg!!

jellybeans&marshmallows rocks!

2006-04-13T02:16:00.000-07:00

Jesus is the reason.

busy, is the word. sec5 is just so different! there's tons of homework to be done! really WOW. [okays, u can argue tt JC is worse.] since my secondary life, i never had so much work before! hahahaa. its wow. =) getting stressed? hmmm not really, but not really not too. mid year like's 2weeks later and i still got like alot more chapters[each sub] to go. 0.o

today in class, we were in our EL groups discussing abt our compre. suddenly, someone talked abt the gospel of Judas, the show screened ytd at national geog channel. they were finding prove to say tt Jesus asked Judas to betray him, ya something along tt line. and ah ha! , a chance to talk abt christianity=) being a blur and "what to say Lord" kinda girl, i tried to explain abit here and there. and awhile later, someone brought up the issue abt the Lord's supper, and guess it, the issue of DAvinci code came up. so i decided to collect the little magazine abt the bible and Davinci code for them. =) thank God for such a chance to serve Him. and the day b4, i was reading my bible and there was tt passage, abt Judas bringing the soldiers up to the hill to arrest Jesus. and thank God tt i can explain abit thru the passage to them as to why Judas kissed Jesus. =) my God's incredulous.

tmr good's friday. lets us continue to look towards the cross and continue to run this race with the CROSS. =)

*thankYOU for all that you have done

yongling;

2006-04-10T05:01:00.000-07:00

im so so blessed beyond measure.

the Lord gives and he takes away.
through these 7mths, i learned alot. =) no doubt i still miss my dad very badly, but im still so loved. i see the ppl around me, i see how God works. and i see how im not alone at all. others have situations worse than me. looking back at myself, i thanked God tt i still have each and everyone of you here, reading my entries and tagging. im never lack of love at all. never. at times, there is just so many questions tt i need Him to ans immediately, i just need tt reply. but i was reminded by the sermon, His ways are not mine, and my thoughts are nt HIs thoughts. im still human, i have feelings, i still cry. but through it all, the question is "are u willing to let God work thru you?" im grateful tt He holds me and He never let me go. this journey here have not been smooth sailing, ups and downs, tears&joy, hurts&pain, but i have walked this far, with God walking alongside me. =)

never wanna know how its like living life without Jesus.
yongling.;

2006-04-09T06:49:00.000-07:00

today captain's ball was good. out of nowhere, we got the team name, last dash. we got third in place after a really good "fight" thanks to LAST DASH.

eric- thanks for always encouraging the team and being such a fanstatic blocker=)

gary- who says you cant run! u was super good at catching&passing lah.

baoling- u really amazes me. =) so enthu despite sport shoes-less. LOVES<3

pris- and yes, without you, there will be no LAST DASH.

raymund- thankyou for being such a WOW catcher=)

went for dinner after everything with a few of them. shal lnot go into details how dinner and everything goes. anyway yepp, thanks God for today and everything tt He has been to me.

learning to keep waiting and trusting for the many questions to be answered.

* im still loved, right?*

yonglingg;

2006-04-06T06:58:00.000-07:00

so nice right?! =DD <3

been quite long since i blog. so yah, here it is =)
this week been quite long for me & sick too. i felt sick, so went to see doc on wed. the doc said i dont have enough rest. hahaha and need to drink plenty of water. plenty of water, sounds familiar ahs? i know, cos the whole world been telling me, so it proves tt i should start putting it into action =) so yah here im resting and trying to think of what to blog. i watched 2 movies this week! ice age2 on monday and ultraviolet today! both shows are very good!=D
had follow up with amanda&caryn today! it reminds me once again to put God first and everything will be right. =) and coool, mum asked me to go out today! and so i met mummy for dinner at causeway. she forced me to drink tonic soup lah! hahaha. but well, she has my interests at heart. <3>

=D rejoice in the Lord always. dearest warriors, cont to shine for Christ wherever you are. God knows and He sees your hearts&needs. JPM tmr. 8pm, see you there~!

you need to let of the past to have a future*

You still deserve all of me-;
yongling;

2006-03-31T07:16:00.000-08:00

CANDY EMPIRE IS SO SUPER COOL LAH! <3

went candy empire with beryl and the crappy marcus.p. hahaha. its so fun! we tried to find tt place..and yes we found it at last! i love that whole place, its some sort like perth to me. not Singapore at all. its far tooo nice. =D went to eat KFC tooo. and hmmm i wonder why i keep laughing. but marcus's funny! =) and he's so accident prompt. he hit/knock onto almost everything/everyone he saw~ =p was so tired after school today, but still went down. never regret lah! i really love that place. so cool. they sell weird-strange stuff! i really love the super BIG lollipop! its in swirl and i love it! but its too ex lah. =)after all, that place is WOW. and ya, there was a lady screaming at a worker there just we so happy over our candies! no idea why too. but she was super angry and she said tt they loses customers because of their super poor attitude. hmmm im fine with them ahs.

yah, today i was really happy! thanks marcus and beryl! and all those "running away"s! =) you know what i mean. =D seriously, i REALLY enjoyed myself! <3>

cant wait for tmr&sunday's dinner! imiss IDENTIFIED!

*YOU are stuck in my heart<3*

-yyongling;

2006-03-30T04:45:00.000-08:00

MARCUS.P

hmmm what about him?

NONO; not tt look, nt like i have a crush on him or smth.

*LAUGHS*

PUKE AHS.

okays, kidding.

serious serious;

so what's with him? hmmm.. i known him for Barely few weeks, but he is really funny and crappy and Sometimes very CRAZY. can never forget the way he will stare at me when i laugh.hmmm dont understand why? i think he's weird. sometimes werider than i thought or rather always. hahaa. hey between its just a laugh eh? =p this little marcus is cool and so super unique. the way he talks, the way he hates chinese and thinks tt everything related with chinese is bad. really bad? yes bad. the way he loves his own taken photos. and hmm let me think, i think tt..he's just super.. super WEIRD. but ya, its really cool, amazing, good, nice, great, wonderful knowing him and crapping around with him. hey marcus, know tt u will be reading this cos u ask me to write about you! laughs. anyway, continue to grow stronger in the Lord. His love unites what is broken apart. His grace is ufficient and His love never fails. trust on, dearest brother in Christ, let us exalt His name! =D

*THE WORLD CAN NEVER TAKE U AWAY; JESUS, U ARE MINE.=D*

YONGLING;

2006-03-29T03:45:00.000-08:00

school today was okays. and rather looonnnnggg. lessons after lessons after lessons. tests after tests after tests. very wow tired.

had morning run in the early morning. hahaa the most memorable morning run ever lah. really really memorable! thanks God, its over. and by God's grace, today's over! another long day. the hardest day to get over in the week. =D

been wondering how heaven's like? i think its too wonderful tt a human mind can know. a room full with cheese for amanda? a BIG basketball court for caryn? a room with all chinese words all over for marcus.p? a room with all FOOD for vera and abel? what's more? hmmm let me think what i want? hahaha, will i be a little taller? =p

anyway, thank God, He has been sustaining me thru weeks after weeks! indeed his grace is sufficient. <3

at different seasons of life, we experience God personally in a different way.

this season of my life, God has been my friend.

*dun worry, i can be fortis with the Lord. *

-yyongling;

2006-03-27T05:10:00.000-08:00

study study! :D

if u ever study with me before, or saw me studying, you will know how the head will always almost touch the table when writing.

"you will be going blind soon!"-p.kenny will say :)
hahaha. :p

im really too bored to blog now! got tests tmr but hmmm havent study yet. lazy lah hahaa. =p

alright.

YONGLING OFF TO HER STARS WORLD!! :D

LOVES LOVES.

WITH CHRIST IN THE VESSEL, WE CAN SMILE AT THE STORM..

LA LA LA~ LA LA LA~

....

2006-03-25T06:02:00.000-08:00

who am i, tt You should care&feel my pain?

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

i know this song have been quite popular among the youths now. but again, i thank God for speaking to me in this way, thru this song. indeed, who am i to deserve His love; to have a LOVING-God like him to love&care for me. He never fails to assure me that His love never fails.

"Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth

Would care to know my name Would care to feel my hurt..."

-yyongling;

2006-03-22T06:44:00.000-08:00

everything i have, belong to You*

for the past few days, i have been thinking about my phone and how to save the money asap to get back my beloved panasonic VS3. its been something hmmm important to me, a brand new phone which my mum bought for me. but maybe beyond these reason, im too prideful over my phone. no, i dont boast/ show off abt it. hmmm i dunno how to explain but its just the feelings of being proud over my cool phone.

but God spoke tto me thru this incident( due to my forgetful-ness& careless-ness). im reminded once again tt everything i have/had come from Him, and Him alone. Pride makes us fall away from Him, and yes He knows us too well. and thru this incident, i really learned much. to treasure and to really acknowledge tt He owns everything in my life.

continue to fix our eyes on Jesus. seek 1st the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these will be give to you as well, amen?

im really blessed, i mean really.(:

so amazing you have named the stars of the deepest night, still you loved me, you have called my name. was standing at the open space between causeway point& church ytd, gazing at stars and just being so amazed at His creation & love.

*let go; God is still God.*
-yyongling;

back view.

2006-03-17T18:38:00.000-08:00

Jesus, be the wind in these sail
; be the fire in my heart
; be the reason that i live.

be in the center of my life.

dont wanna know anything at all. <3>

JESUS just rocks my life; never letting HIM go.

*take my hand

;yyongling

2006-03-16T06:44:00.000-08:00

have u ever wonder how far heaven is?
oh well, maybe you dont but i always do.

"how far is heaven? How high above me?"

and today, i realised how far heaven is, is not determined by the distance but our lives.

Our God is indeed extra-ordinary.

had a super WOW experience today with beryl...

we went sentosa in the morning and we were still having great fun....when.., smth went really wrong. beryl, isabelle, ch'ng yi, me and benn went on a float. talking and talking, we will going further and further from the shore. out of the sudden, benn had leg cramps and so he let go of the float and shockingly, beryl let go too. so having 2 person weight down, the float lose balance, and so chng yi and belle let go too. for me? i was deciding whether to let go/ just hang on to it. but while my mind is still in a swirl, the float toppled over me and i lost hold on it. and being it at high tide, abt 3m++ high, and considering my height, i was yes, drowning. struggling to find the rest, those who can swim, i hold on to beryl and she wasnt balancing well herself too and therefore it resulted me dragging her down the sea. and after pushing her real hard down in trying to push myself up, i still cant reach the sea surface. but beryl managed to kick herself up to the surface. and feeling guilty, cos i know i push beryl too hard, i let go of her and tried to struggle on my own. moments later i saw belle hand reaching for me, though she was still quite far. but i managed to get hold to the float and yes im safe, beryl's safe too.

phew* relief.

me: hey i almost drown![when im getting okays]
farand: [looking at me] oh i know, hmmm learn new things ah, we learn new things everyday.[smile]
me: what?! [thinking aloud]i mean drown!!

at tt moment, i felt SO close to heaven. its like just next to me. it may seems nothing big deal to some of you but its a testimony for me once again, seeing God's mercy and His faithfulness. and i thank God for beryl and how this incident happened. Praising Him tt we are really SAFE, i was reminded tt how precious life is. at that "drowning" or u called it struggling moment, many things/person flashed thru my mind at that very short period of fighting for survival. indeed, God's amazing.

as for what gone thru my mind, [haha] tt's gonna be a secret =D

but seriously, this incident really taught me much. thankyou beryl. *hugs*

was waiting for mummy at semb station just now, i saw ppl in wheelchair. and the feeling of seeing them is unexplainable. i never felt tt way before until the ever 1st time i saw my dad in a wheelchair. the pain just hurt so deep down. mummy was at Tan Tock seng just now, her friend's husband was hospitalised and his condition was terrible bad. 3 of his blood vessels in his brain burst and there is no way to save him anymore, was the doc final say. and so techincally, he is dead but counting on the hospital facitilites to breathe, and he is not concious. which again reminds me of daddy. i really miss daddy. being strong include crying*.Daddy had always been someone whom i really respected and loved. nothing gonna change this fact.

i dont like doctors, all them could say is, sorry we have done our best, and stoood there watching him go.

wish you were there.

* nothing but you.
-yyongling;

2006-03-14T07:30:00.000-08:00

dont know when i found you, but i'm going to let go silently.

small part of under construction.=D

hmm lucille's birthday i think, cant remb much. hhahas. yepp.

JEsus, you have my heart! =p

never fail to get super happy when i think of my CG and FORTIS! they comes together in my thoughts. they make me happy all the times! they encourages me. and my life is so much interesting with my cg and with fortis. =D

<-- still not all the CG members. its still part of them. its been a long way, cg. :) maybe more of my cg photos will
sums up the whole cg. hahas. yaa. =D
i simply love them lah. all the outings, fun, care, love and deep sharings. thankyou for the times when we are just together. and even the silence. =D i will miss everyone of you, really. but thank God, im looking forward to what is to come.and im very sure God's plan is just so perfect. =) thru

thick and thin, we stand firm in His unfailing love. under construction rocks! <3

<-- amanda's birthday. hey girl, continue to be tt cheerful and strong girl. grow in the LORD =D <3>

FORTIS ROCKS. <3
really, fortis really makes me happy. thinking thru the times we laugh tog and share and talk. really really makes me smile. remb the war game night? i saw teamwork and LOVE. how we endure each other and work together. the carrying of table and tying of water bags. how we fall down and get up again. really really loves FORTIS<3>
remb? our victory song, "rejoice in the Lord always,and again i say rejoice! " and our animal game. (: the spider, the starfish, the pig, the rabbit, jellyfish, dog, spongebox and lots man. so FUN. =DD and most importantly, is of cos, we are one step closer in our own spiritual walk with Jesus. and growing in the Lord is such great joy. we will not be in the same FORTIS team this yr, but these memories, i will never forget. i see God's hands and work in us. =D

6months.

*becos of you, i never stray too far from the sidewalk.*
-yongling;

2006-03-12T03:20:00.000-08:00

its sunday =D

today sermon by pastor kenny was really GOOD. going to Jesus in desperate situations and learning to acknowledge our needs and in believing in Jesus! i learnt to not tell God what to do, step by step but instead, letting Him work His ways. yes, we had heard it many times but did we really let God do things His ways? =) and what really strike me most in service was the qn: " what do you(really) thirst for?" "How much do you thirst for Jesus?"

under,construction;*

had CG after sermon. its such a small group, its been so looonnngg since we had a small and cosy group. this week its small becos, most of the guys had BB camp. (: the bible study emily prepared and lead us in was really another reminder of how we so often left Jesus out of our life. the time we spent in devotion can also determined how much we really love Jesus and how much we are willing to give to Him.

follow-up*

follow up w amanda & caryn have always been interesting and fun. =) we finished our 1st booklet! moving on to the 2nd one.(yeahs!!) and i thank God tt they have been growing and are regular in church! LOVES LOVES=DD

family*

went out with mummy and kor just now! wasnt a fanstatic outing, we din agreed w each other on alot of stuff and communication was bad:( , but ya, still thank God for the time spent. (: oh and my 2nd brother went army le! *miss him*

IDentified*

yes yes, meet up ytd. love the time spent eating and talking cum sharing. once again, yes thanking God tt we are so different yet so close. *hugs*

oh school tmr! hahaa. opps wonder how to ans to teacher abt the absence on thurs and fri x) although i'm sick, i have no MC oh so.. be ready for judgement.

*physics pract test on tues :( *

-yongling;

2006-03-10T06:52:00.001-08:00

my brother went army! =D =( i gonna miss him! loads loadds=)

went town with beryl and isabelle today. everywhere we go, there are ppl looking for models and asking for our names and numbers. (duh)

and yes had a good time shopping with them=DD brought lots of accessories and shirt and a bag! cool ahs. im lovin'it =)

i just pluck my tooth.very pain:(:(:( very very pain. :(:( its a decay tooth. so black and ugly. *pain.pain*

and thank God for my brother, mp3 alive again! =))

captain's ball tmr =) same place same time. see you there.

nothing much to say/blog today. cos i bet you wont understand(= enjoy life my friends.

*wish u could be here*

yongling;

2006-03-10T06:52:00.000-08:00

my brother went army! =D =( i gonna miss him! loads loadds=)

went town with beryl and isabelle today. everywhere we go, there are ppl looking for models and asking for our names and numbers. (duh)

and yes had a good time shopping with them=DD brought lots of accessories and shirt and a bag! cool ahs. im lovin'it =)

i just pluck my tooth.very pain:(:(:( very very pain. :(:( its a decay tooth. so black and ugly. *pain.pain*

and thank God for my brother, mp3 alive again! =))

captain's ball tmr =) same place same time. see you there.

nothing much to say/blog today. cos i bet you wont understand(= enjoy life my friends.

*wish u could be here*

yongling;

2006-03-09T07:58:00.000-08:00

finally; again! changed blogskin =D

yes yes beryl, i m stuck with this song. (all your fault* =p)

din go school today. my nose terribly pain. crap lah. but didnt see doc, seeing tmr i guess =)

follow up with amanda and caryn was great. thay are such great fun!

LOVES* =)) each time i met them for follow up, i feel and i know they are growing! hey its spiritually i mean *grins* love you girls.

cant wait for sat! captain's ball and meet up with IDentified! =DD

alrights, sleeping soon. byeeee.*

*kor's going army tmr :(*

yongling*

2006-03-06T22:51:00.000-08:00

march. 8more months to O'.

i start to feel the urgency of studying but as usual im doing little about it. :( yes. have been studying but little. really little, cos im still blogging.

pastor ivan's sermon on sunday was really excellent. sometimes, doing God's work become a chore. how we need to intentionally reach out and getting out of our comfort zone. it become a heavy responsibilty. But thru the sermon, i feel a sense of refreshment from God. i felt more re-charged and ready to do His work.i learned to embrace the position and role He gave us and give Him our best. God never forces us to do anything. its our choice. and again, telling Him today, i choose to follow you. =D

after LTP, had eating-session with dearest lucille at causeway. its even better taking some time talking to her.(: which we decided to spend more time with our fellow sisters in christ. so we went back to church. although the sudden meet-up wasnt what we expected, but indeed whatever that happened brought us much closer, as we learned to lean on God's promises thru the storm and seeking Him first. girls, im really proud of all of you. thankyou for being so strong in the Lord and being alongside me thru all mine and yours struggles. i see God's hands in each of your life. i really thank God tt we are so different. different routes we are taking now and how each of you have been overcoming obstacles. way to go, princesses.xD

looking forward to march holiday which will come as soon as it will be over.

Sports minstry* harvest harvest=DD

hey anyone interested in sports?
does captain's ball sounds nice *grins*, -3pm, in church(WEFC), every alt of saturadays.(2nd and 4th.)
floorball?& ultimate frisbee? - in church, sunday after LTP. hmmm 3 plus i think.

*hey abel, if you are reading, thanks for the candy, it brightens up my day=D*

*becos of love, He left His throne and make this earth His home*
-yongling;

2006-03-04T06:17:00.000-08:00

*happy birthday beloved mummy=D*

me and mummy xD.

had dinner at sake sushi and yes, back at home for tiramisu cake! xD but the layer of chocolate on top really thick lah. eeeeekk*i dun like. but i really love the wordings on top. =DD

this year birthday for mummy must be really different for her bah. she's going to visit daddy at mandai tmr morning. bet she miss daddy as much as i do. just tt we dont talk about it at home. and everything seems as usual after everything tt had happened. oh well. =X

i choose to follow You, becos You chose the nails.
-yyongling* dearest child.

2006-03-03T16:43:00.000-08:00

God always keep His promises;

i once told someone...
at my lowest time of life, im cant soar on high like an eagle, im unable to run with my own strength, but i wont give up, no matter how hard this journey gonna be, i will walk on.

i hope this encourages all of you (: no matter what u are feeling now, God still knows and see. Our God is an extra-ordinary God.

mummy, happy birthday. i know u are feeling horrible without daddy, but we are always here for you(:

*You are an incredulous God.*
-yonggling;

2006-03-02T00:22:00.000-08:00

mp3; converseSHOES[grey&pink]

-your promises/.

i ordered a ZEN mp3 from my friend. =D it costs $170[promotion price!] but i havent pay yet. need to save money first. my mp3 spoil long ago and i need one badly.

mp3-its dad's promise.

converse shoes! yes jie, the pair of converse shoe has always been on my mind! simply love it. the grey and pink just looks so pretty tog. =D i will get it too. but not any sooner.

converse shoe-its dad's promise.

tmr friday! JPM xD

daddyy, i miss you.

and i'll hope you always stay the same, cos there's nothing about you i will change.

*becos of you, i never stray too far from the sidewalk.*

-yonglingg;

2006-03-01T06:12:00.000-08:00

wow! i simply love sunrise=D

i did quite badly for common test :( but still i see God's grace with me. studied in church today. teaching beryl chinese was good. but really hope i didnt mess things up for her :p hahaas. life been good i guess.

dont know what to blog. my mind isnt working well. im really exhausted. i want to sleep. tmr thurs =D short day. friday? shorterr (:

purest of pain~

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you
But I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
And so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live without you
And maybe someone else is standing there beside you
But there's something baby that you need to know
That deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking

Chorus
Baby, give me back my fantasies
The courage that I need to live
The air that I breathe

Livin' without you, my world's become so empty
My days are so cold and lonely
And each night I taste the purest of pain

I wish I can tell you that I'm feeling better everyday
that I didn't hurt when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
That deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you, it's all that I'm asking

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you
But I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
And so I surrender just to hear your voice

i m always that xiao guai wu that God loves =D
im never alone.

*yonglinggg...*

2006-02-28T03:21:00.000-08:00

yesyes, tt's only part of my CG.(: indeed, a pictures says a thousand words. ffrom this pic, i see passion and a God working in the lives of these ppl. =D i truly thank God for them. each of them, including those not in the pic.

sam&emily-
hard time leading us!(: thankyou for guiding us thru this journey.

joanne-
i love the journey back home with you. seeing you growing thru struggles, just want to say, im truly amazed at God's works in your life.

vera-
sorry for the times when im just so irritating. thankyou for being so open in sharing all the times and willing to make this friendship grow. thankyou for knowing me well enough to know tt i need those questions asked to really face the reality.

ruth-
hey miss you. sorry for not talking to you often. but i enjoyed your presence in CG and church =D

andrina-
((: thank GOd tt He brings u back to this CG. simply thankful. continue to hold on kaes? praying tt our friendship will grow stronger.

caryn-
yes yes caryn the greatest! looking back at my past yr journal, i thank God answering my prayers in bringing you closer to Himself((: you rocks! you really brighten up my life.

claire-
hey great cooker and wonderfyl housewife-to-be. hahaa. hold on to God k? you are so precious and special to us and to Jesus. in troubles time, in Him we trust on k? run on, girl.

amanda-
hey the ever cheerful and joyful girl.thankyou for adding so much colours in my life too. you been such great encouragement. =D know tt life aint perfect for you, but girl, thid life with God is not easy, but He promised to be there. never give up k? im proud of you and thanking God every moment for you=D *HUGS*

loren-
the new girl! jey u are cool lah. and really familiar=D rock on kae? and continue to marvel at His unfailing love and amazing grace. stay with us and run with us! Jesus loves you.

lucille-
=D its seems to be YEARS since i talked to you. how? how have life been? thry all the struggles, i know you have grown stronger in Him and i appreciate all that u are and all tt u have been. miss yyou.

sarah-
dearest twin! =D again, u are truly a God-given blessings. thankyou. just want to remind you tt u are still part of my life. (:

siew mun-
your leg okie le mah? must takecare ya? miss you in CG for few weeks! come back soon kae? :D:D

dorcus-
hey thankyou for always being to caring towards the CG and willing to listen to everythings we say(:

leo-nut-
hey dunno whether u will get to read this, u know wad? u are indeed great. thankyou for always being there to talk to me and praying for me. you are simply wonderful. walk on, brother.

mervin-
how have life been? cheer up kaes? God's purpose in your life will be greater than anythings. trust on! msg me anytime ya? JESUSrocks. never let go.

glenn-
super duper glad tt u are back! u played good frisbeee! very goood. :D

anthony-
hey (: you are good at almost everything lah. hahaa. really really thank God tt you are in our CG. glad to see you growing stronger and deeper in Christ every week. and yes, you been encouraging, im serious (: (:

daniel-
hey there. looking at you, i thank God tt He placed you alongside with me walking this journey in school life. knowing tt u are not alone, and im not too! :D work hard for Olevels kaes? i know u can do it de. He knows our path already ya? so take heart k? maybe u would never get stress, i dunno, but take it easy ya? jia you :D

sammuel-
hey hey((: you are joy man. trust in His ways ya? :D

benn-
hey hope u are feeling better. nothing to worry ya? cos Jesus is with us. dont think too much((: smile on and wwwooooofff** blog on too ya? im happy to have known you and yes, tt u are in under construction, trusting and running this race w us. whatever comes your way, know tt JEsus never let u go. *smiles*

under construction* rocks. each of us are under His construction. shaping and moulding us into His likeness. perserve on workers((: LOVES.

another picture of passion and love.((: Fortis rocks lah. leading this team, i see God's works and promises and HIs hand of grace and mercy. i thank God for giving me this opportunity to lead fortis. its been great joy, seeing how we work tog and by God's grace love each other and pray for one another. Each of you have been a blessing. including andrew! hey i really will miss working with you when u are gone in shining for God in army. but once again, i enjoyed working with you last year. you are coool! hahaa:D fortis, never give up on God k? Jesus will lead us to where He wants us to be. thankyou for showing me how to be strong in His love. *smiles*

*the will of God will not lead us to where the grace of God cannot keep us.*

- His precious yonglingg.

2006-02-27T00:56:00.000-08:00

captain's ball(:
my God is good. above all, He loves us((:

really thanks God for seeing us so far(: all the sweats, tiredness, flatten ball, danger, sun burn, new comers, smiles, anger, disapointments. (: everything.
keep on praying tt God will sustains us ya? this sports minstry will surely have a great harvest(: only way: trust&obey. u guys rocks man! :D

monday is such a bleahh day for schoool.. so tired! x) but thank God once again, His strength is perfect when our strength is gone.

being a christian isnt easy, but never give up k? all the struggles, heartaches we faced its just there to help us go closer to God and grow stronger in our faith. its horrible to be in that kind of situation but find joy ya? the joy of knowing tt God still cares about you and desires to make u grow stringer and deeper in Him. ((: (just smth to encourage those feeling discouraged) these weeks, i have been seeing how God has been working in each of our lives. it have been an encouraging journey these weeks, discovering God in the lives of others.be it my cg or people outside of my cg, i see God working and refining us to be more like Him. brothers&sisters, God collect the tears that we shed and add in His to make something beautiful out of it. ((: this is a msg someone sent me few months ago when im not feeling okie. and yes it encouraged me alot. :D hope it touches your heart too. never let go of Jesus k? cos he never let us go, whatever happens(:

like i found reason enough in you to love again.

*hold my hand and lead me, you never let me go..
-yyyonglingg;

2006-02-24T20:33:00.000-08:00

we had a fun&wonderful time ytd at east coast!((: cool man. common test over. its been so long since we go out! [w sch friends] they simply rocks lah. every single one of you ROCKS.(hear that) im so so happy.!

eileen, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!xD

sisters&brothers wanshui*

preeetttyy. iLOVEbeach.

we are at PIT 20! (:

waiting for bus, in queue. cheers pals.waiting for bus;
bao&ling-sistersUrocks.
the jin-gang((:
birthdaygirl &jessie&beatrice
nicholasBLUR.

husband&wife*LOLS.

xD Olevels not over yet;

chill~

im loved*

yonglingg;

2006-02-24T20:19:00.000-08:00

the next-door friends.
bbq-ing prawns! weiming go(:

eileen'd birthdaygirl& ling;
an beng sia. chris and quan(:

we rule! :D friends for LIFE.

2006-02-23T22:00:00.000-08:00

blog blog blog.

i miss com for days! finally im back. the good feeling of having your fingers on the key board.((:

common test finally's over! and thanks God it had been a week of seeing Him working in my life and the lives of others. its been really encouraging.(: to all those who shared and always keeping me updated about your life, thankyou! in the midst of busyness, im really want to thank God for still watching over me and blessing me and placing good sisters and brothers alongside with me.

IDentified*
hey sweeties. just want to remind u girls that im still with all of you. gonna miss dinner with you all tonight im so sorry.will be at east coast with sch friends. eileen's bday party. but yes, i see how god works in each other lives thru the past years. and im encouraged that we are still tog and standing firm in Him. indeed dearies, its been a LONG way. we'll move on tog.(: *hugs* LOVES LOVES.

yes yes. reason enough to love...(:

mummy's birthday coming soon! hahaa. big surpise for her:D *beams* big kor coming church some sunday soon! pray on kaes? plspls! :D looking back, God have been working, moving in my family, in my world. i wont see daddy anymore, but i want the rest to go back to Jesus. i will fight no matter what. *CHIONG* im learning to be contented to what i have. i dont want to be that spoilt girl anymore. i must learn to understand that situation is not like last time anymore, can get whatever i want. i must learn to save money. No more daddy, no more EXTRA income. i must learn to know that i should only get stuff that i NEED not i want. (Although there is really alot of things i want.esp the pair of converse shoe and mp3(that dadddy promised to get for me:( .

NEED not WANT.

*im wanted by JEsus, captivated by His LOVE.*
-yyongling.

2006-02-18T07:31:00.000-08:00

praise GOD for Groovyy
Niitttee!(:

it has always been amazing how God bring people back to Him. it has been encouraging too. never give up,peers.

thanks God for all the people who help out in the v.day pre. Really appreciate everything. the decor and stuff. food's nice too.((: the band!! coool tooo.really realllyy GREAT. and wx and emily, u guys rocks too(: and most importantly, thanks God for being there. His presence is strong(:

i dont wanna to wait till the stars fall before i call to heaven, what abt you? what's your choice? there is so much more to this life.

Jesus died so that we can live. He is condemm so we can be forgiven.
His love endures forever.

*my ulcers still hurtsss!!!!!:(:(:(:( 4lah! bleahhhh*
-yonglingg; work WITH God.

JESUSrocks!

2006-02-12T05:02:00.000-08:00

(: sunday was good.

was flipping through my last year journal just now. just thanking God for all that He has been doing in my life and the lives of others ard me. came across one of the sermon preached last year.
-crossing the difficult rivers in life
we must be fully devoted to God so that He can used us. He will do amazing things in our life if we are willing to set apart ourselves for His special use.
the main point for me i guess is: choosing to stand on His promises. in joshua3:9, joshua lead the ppl to listen to God words. to believe and claim His promises. the priests must get their feets wet 1st by stepping into the river 1st before God can do wonders.
the same thing written in my journal: stand on God's promises* there will be challenges but stand on His promises. are we ready to get our feets wet? are we willing to step out in faith?

*God will work

dare to be different for God? join me(:

this feeling of taking Olevels this year is so unexplainable.it just isnt right. but i thank God for this extra one more year to be renew, change and loved.i once reminded ppl not to always compare themselves to others cause God has different purposes for our lives. until now, i realised tt i have always been sub-conciously comparing myself to others youths both in church and school. but i thank God for helping me to realise, its not about how good my results will be, but about whether im willing to trust Him. it will not be an easy year, but im really excited about what the future lies for me.=D *im living for the King.

when you prays, God works.

*fixing my eyes on Jesus*
-yyongling;